Replies to 'Bulimia'

So your therapist knows nothing about your bulimia?  It is scary to think you may have to go to a treatment center but they aren't the only way.  There are other things like how you are going to therapy now.  Don't you think if you discussed it with her that you may be able to have someone to help you or guide you along.  They don't always send you to treatment centers, sure there are some people that it would be best to go in a treatment center but well who says you need one.  I am sure your therapist would see how you two could work together in helping you overcome.  We are all overcomers it just sometimes seems to take a while to get there.  We have it in us to overcome but sometimes we need a good kick in the but to do it. 

hehe I sit here and say this to youknow that i need to remember it myself.  It is so hard to remember or think of exspecially when you can be soooooooooo confused and you don't know what you want.  ooooo and when you think what do I want and you can't figure do you well yeah i don't know LOL i am just babblin on it feels like LOL......  I mean I keep think to myself if i really want to get better then why haven't i done it and i get so angry...... ooooo i'll hush now LOL......  it seems like i can't really ever think of anything much different then this

Hi Sunnymonkey,

I understand your pain.  I think you need a new Therapist, one who you can be upfront with and emotionally honest with.  Opening yourself up to another person can be really scary, however, if you really want to get better, to learn to love and respect your self, and feel that your are worth loving, you need to be able to be brutally honest with your therapist and he/she should not make you fell judged.  Also, therapy hurts emotionally sometimes and it should; it it does not hurt, then your therapist or you as a client are not doing your/their job.  You need to get at what is really eating you -- it may be that you are all about avoidance, especially when it comes to emotional stuff. Just one possible reason for the stuffing down of food, is the stuffing down of emotions.

--Anyways, when I was pregnant with my first child -- I had to think of someone else beside me, but afterwords it started again.  What finally made me stop altogether was that I did not want to transmit my distorted ways of eating along to my daughters.  It is a lot of work, every day. It is not just the nutritional stuff, but as I mentioned before it is the emotional stuff.