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March 6, 2006, 8:28 pm PST
 Quote From: heren44 There is NOTHING worse than being BiPolar, except BiPolarII. I have been diagnosed as BiPolar II, and it is a HORRIBLE disease to try and live with! My youngest daughter was diagnosed at 13, before I was-and I went thru a living HELL with her. In and out of hospitals; every other day taking her to counselors; twice a week taking her to phyciatrists; holding her and loving her with all I had when the voice of "Weird Al Yankovich" took over her head! The first time she was hospitalized, they diagnosed her as phscofrenic-that scared me to death. Then the second time she was hospitalized, they said no-she was just suffering from depression; then finally, we got a wonderful Dr. that came from the Queens in NYC and believe me; she had seen everything!!!! She said absoulutly NOT; both of the diagnosis given to my daughter was wrong-and the 12 pills they had her on a day had to stop. By this time, she had stopped going to school because all the kids in school had found out she had been hospitalized in the Mental Behavior Hospital, and they were all making fun of her, and calling her names-even her so called 'friends'! This Dr. put her back in the hospital one day, after we (my daughter & I) were shopping and she snapped, and lodged herself between 2 pop machines outside the store, and was yelling at people to help her that I beat her!! After about 3 minutes, she snapped out of it, and wondered what she was doing inbetween the pop machines and came out and got in the car. She was totally exhausted, and I had contacted the Dr and they said bring her straight to the hospital for a direct admit. On this admit, she was combative. But, this Dr diagnosed her as BiPolar II; with extreme depression-ADD; and extreme anxiety disorder. At that point, her concentration time was 6 minutes. This school district in North East, approximately 10miles east of Erie PA, that she was attending told me they could not do anything for her; they were not equipped to handle a child with her problems; so we had to move. When we moved to Jamestown NY, she still could not go back to school, as she was deathly afraid of all the new kids. When we went into the school to register her, you could literally see her chest shaking. I home schooled her until she turned 16; then she gave it up-as much as I begged her; her faith in herself was completely shot. And the worst part was; she was an A-B student!!! After that, about a year later-I had a nervous breakdown. My family Dr immediately sent me into counseling and that was 6 years ago. I am still in counseling; and seeing a Dr once a month. I am also BiPolar II; with extreme anxiety disorder; and extreme agoraphobia. It is living hell! I can be sitting there fine; and all of a sudden, something washes over me, and I just want to throw something-wreck anything I can get my hands on!! And I can't understand why this happens; I am on 5 different physic meds-but it doesn't completely take care of everything. All I know is it would be much worse if I was not on my meds!! There are chips out of my tiles in my kitchen where I have thrown cups; chips off my wall where I have thrown things; holes in my doors where my daughter and I have punched them. And Lord help us; it's nothing that at the time, we can control!! The feelings go away after a few minutes-but during those few minutes a living hell!! There are times I just feel like giving up; stop taking all these meds I'm on; and just let go; I CAN NOT STAND LIVING WITH THIS MENTAL ILLNESS ANYMORE!!!! I would like your help if at all possible. I'm sure there are MANY people out there much worse off than me, and God knows my heart goes out to them, but I honestly can see how some people just end it all!!!! It gets to that point in my feelings alot lately. Thank you for your time; and please; have a nice day. And again, thank you for listening to me! heren44@hotmail.com hchilds@stny.rr.com heebee44@yahoo.com And I thought I was the only one living life like this. Out of all the quotes, yours is the closest in similiarities. Except for my daughter is 18 and has been diagnosed with Bi-polar I. We need to support each other. |
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August 1, 2006, 1:30 pm PDT
Quote From: heren44 There is NOTHING worse than being BiPolar, except BiPolarII. I have been diagnosed as BiPolar II, and it is a HORRIBLE disease to try and live with! My youngest daughter was diagnosed at 13, before I was-and I went thru a living HELL with her. In and out of hospitals; every other day taking her to counselors; twice a week taking her to phyciatrists; holding her and loving her with all I had when the voice of "Weird Al Yankovich" took over her head! The first time she was hospitalized, they diagnosed her as phscofrenic-that scared me to death. Then the second time she was hospitalized, they said no-she was just suffering from depression; then finally, we got a wonderful Dr. that came from the Queens in NYC and believe me; she had seen everything!!!! She said absoulutly NOT; both of the diagnosis given to my daughter was wrong-and the 12 pills they had her on a day had to stop. By this time, she had stopped going to school because all the kids in school had found out she had been hospitalized in the Mental Behavior Hospital, and they were all making fun of her, and calling her names-even her so called 'friends'! This Dr. put her back in the hospital one day, after we (my daughter & I) were shopping and she snapped, and lodged herself between 2 pop machines outside the store, and was yelling at people to help her that I beat her!! After about 3 minutes, she snapped out of it, and wondered what she was doing inbetween the pop machines and came out and got in the car. She was totally exhausted, and I had contacted the Dr and they said bring her straight to the hospital for a direct admit. On this admit, she was combative. But, this Dr diagnosed her as BiPolar II; with extreme depression-ADD; and extreme anxiety disorder. At that point, her concentration time was 6 minutes. This school district in North East, approximately 10miles east of Erie PA, that she was attending told me they could not do anything for her; they were not equipped to handle a child with her problems; so we had to move. When we moved to Jamestown NY, she still could not go back to school, as she was deathly afraid of all the new kids. When we went into the school to register her, you could literally see her chest shaking. I home schooled her until she turned 16; then she gave it up-as much as I begged her; her faith in herself was completely shot. And the worst part was; she was an A-B student!!! After that, about a year later-I had a nervous breakdown. My family Dr immediately sent me into counseling and that was 6 years ago. I am still in counseling; and seeing a Dr once a month. I am also BiPolar II; with extreme anxiety disorder; and extreme agoraphobia. It is living hell! I can be sitting there fine; and all of a sudden, something washes over me, and I just want to throw something-wreck anything I can get my hands on!! And I can't understand why this happens; I am on 5 different physic meds-but it doesn't completely take care of everything. All I know is it would be much worse if I was not on my meds!! There are chips out of my tiles in my kitchen where I have thrown cups; chips off my wall where I have thrown things; holes in my doors where my daughter and I have punched them. And Lord help us; it's nothing that at the time, we can control!! The feelings go away after a few minutes-but during those few minutes a living hell!! There are times I just feel like giving up; stop taking all these meds I'm on; and just let go; I CAN NOT STAND LIVING WITH THIS MENTAL ILLNESS ANYMORE!!!! I would like your help if at all possible. I'm sure there are MANY people out there much worse off than me, and God knows my heart goes out to them, but I honestly can see how some people just end it all!!!! It gets to that point in my feelings alot lately. Thank you for your time; and please; have a nice day. And again, thank you for listening to me! heren44@hotmail.com hchilds@stny.rr.com heebee44@yahoo.com I watch DrPhil every day but today's episode of the bipolar disease really got my asking myself questions about my daugther. She is a 11 year old ... dignosed with ADD and ADHD about 4 years ago ... She also have a mild case of cerebral palsey as well (which means she DOES NOT need help at all in the state of North Carolina) ... she has had it since birth ... just gets better and its going in the other direction right now ... During spring break this past school year, my daugther got to spend her's in the 10th floor of our local hospital (which is the Children and Adolescent Psychiatry department). You see my daugther has heard voices talking to her for years ( at least for the last 4 or 5 years ... she started to talk about them) ... 5 voices all together but only that is "bad". She can tell you anything you want to know about this person that she hears. From what she wears ... what she looks like ... to what her house looks like on the inside ... The "bad" one is now intruding her to hurt me, her grandma and her brother ... Knives and guns she says ...She was ready to get help ... so I took her ... She was in the hospital for a week and all they wanted to do was dope her up . I told them to release her and I could do that at home with benedryl (which I would NEVER do) but to just show them how stupid I thought they were. After that ... they scheduled her an appointment at a recoverly center here in Winston Salem, NC. They are helping her more than the hospital but to start with they were going to asset her for bipolar ... Talking to the Dr and he is saying schizophrenia. I wrote all of this to ask this one question ........ Is there a difference in bipolar and schizophrenia? If so ... could someone please tell me ... I want them to help her but help her with what it "truely" wrong with her. Thank You in Advance
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August 1, 2006, 2:43 pm PDT
Quote From: heren44 There is NOTHING worse than being BiPolar, except BiPolarII. I have been diagnosed as BiPolar II, and it is a HORRIBLE disease to try and live with! My youngest daughter was diagnosed at 13, before I was-and I went thru a living HELL with her. In and out of hospitals; every other day taking her to counselors; twice a week taking her to phyciatrists; holding her and loving her with all I had when the voice of "Weird Al Yankovich" took over her head! The first time she was hospitalized, they diagnosed her as phscofrenic-that scared me to death. Then the second time she was hospitalized, they said no-she was just suffering from depression; then finally, we got a wonderful Dr. that came from the Queens in NYC and believe me; she had seen everything!!!! She said absoulutly NOT; both of the diagnosis given to my daughter was wrong-and the 12 pills they had her on a day had to stop. By this time, she had stopped going to school because all the kids in school had found out she had been hospitalized in the Mental Behavior Hospital, and they were all making fun of her, and calling her names-even her so called 'friends'! This Dr. put her back in the hospital one day, after we (my daughter & I) were shopping and she snapped, and lodged herself between 2 pop machines outside the store, and was yelling at people to help her that I beat her!! After about 3 minutes, she snapped out of it, and wondered what she was doing inbetween the pop machines and came out and got in the car. She was totally exhausted, and I had contacted the Dr and they said bring her straight to the hospital for a direct admit. On this admit, she was combative. But, this Dr diagnosed her as BiPolar II; with extreme depression-ADD; and extreme anxiety disorder. At that point, her concentration time was 6 minutes. This school district in North East, approximately 10miles east of Erie PA, that she was attending told me they could not do anything for her; they were not equipped to handle a child with her problems; so we had to move. When we moved to Jamestown NY, she still could not go back to school, as she was deathly afraid of all the new kids. When we went into the school to register her, you could literally see her chest shaking. I home schooled her until she turned 16; then she gave it up-as much as I begged her; her faith in herself was completely shot. And the worst part was; she was an A-B student!!! After that, about a year later-I had a nervous breakdown. My family Dr immediately sent me into counseling and that was 6 years ago. I am still in counseling; and seeing a Dr once a month. I am also BiPolar II; with extreme anxiety disorder; and extreme agoraphobia. It is living hell! I can be sitting there fine; and all of a sudden, something washes over me, and I just want to throw something-wreck anything I can get my hands on!! And I can't understand why this happens; I am on 5 different physic meds-but it doesn't completely take care of everything. All I know is it would be much worse if I was not on my meds!! There are chips out of my tiles in my kitchen where I have thrown cups; chips off my wall where I have thrown things; holes in my doors where my daughter and I have punched them. And Lord help us; it's nothing that at the time, we can control!! The feelings go away after a few minutes-but during those few minutes a living hell!! There are times I just feel like giving up; stop taking all these meds I'm on; and just let go; I CAN NOT STAND LIVING WITH THIS MENTAL ILLNESS ANYMORE!!!! I would like your help if at all possible. I'm sure there are MANY people out there much worse off than me, and God knows my heart goes out to them, but I honestly can see how some people just end it all!!!! It gets to that point in my feelings alot lately. Thank you for your time; and please; have a nice day. And again, thank you for listening to me! heren44@hotmail.com hchilds@stny.rr.com heebee44@yahoo.com i know how ur daughter feels about the whole school thing i am 18 years old and i was in the same boat as her about the teasing and looks.It's totally horrible i was put in the hospital for 2 weeks and my life has never been the same since..it's a horrible disease to live with and you just kinda have to take it like ok this is what god gave me now how can i make this work and try and get through this the best i can..I am a suiside survivor and you know life is more than you know i hurt so many people when i tryed to slit my wrist and i hit the bottom of the black hole at that time and never wanna be there again |
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