Replies to '08/01 Extreme Highs and Lows'

I was diagnosed with bipolar last year of May,  and I've been taken medication for almost a year, and it's finally starting to work.  The medications are helping me so much and I don't have those mood swings like I use to. The medication I'm on are Trileptal  has harly side effects, and it's a new safe drug and don't even put weight on you. Remember this medication is not for everyone, it takes a long time for the drug to get in your blood systom and work.  If you quit your medication whatever your on your mood swings gets worse I know I've been there too.  When I was in my late 20's I was diagnosed with bipolar and took lithium  and 6 months later I quit taking it. Thinking I don't need this anymore I feel better.  The bipolar in pretty much under control I still once in a while have my highs and lows and I know now and understand when I have them. I try to control myself and take a deep breath and try to slow down.  If your medication is work don't stop taking it!!!!   I heard on a show that Dr Phil said don't stop taking your medication if it's working for you, if we have a chemical imbalance then we need to take care of it and ourselves.  I've been so much out of control all my life and tired of feeling this way and tired of that roller coaster. How we can control that roller coaster inside is take medication and it will some of  that ups and downs, medication will not take care of all it we have to work with the medication.   

I also have boderline personality disorder, I struggle with that the most  that is one of the most severe illness to have. I'm working so hard to take of my illnesses. I was so angry when I found out I had them and now we have to take action to work on them. I have done a lot of hard work, but I still have a long ways to go.  I can relate with the RAGE inside, your up one minute the manic stage then you crash into a depression.  The medication has helped a lot,  I still struggle with the BPD illness. I'm ready to go to DBT classes for that and for a whole year. I've had rage all my life and now it's time to stop the cycle. It's so hard at times but now know what is wrong with me and now I got to do something about it.  I was in the ER last year several times and the crazy ward also wanted to die and ever morning last year I just want to wake up and just did not want to live.  I've been through so much all my life, the sexual abuse, physical abuse, drinking and drugging for years to stop the pain inside. I could not stay sober because the pain was so severe,  and the rage was so severe and I could not understand what was going on and had 50 jobs in 15 years and could not hold a job.  I get into a manic stage and rage then walk out and quit my job because I could not handle the stress and my job.  Life is not easy and with a mental illness does not help, I  see Dr Phil help so many people on the show and he is such a wonderful person. 

I have a mixture of bipolar that the worse to have  here is link to it for bipolar, I read, read and read on all my illnesses and learn as much as I can...... 

http://www.bipolarworld.net/Storm/2001/storm17.htm 

lostgirl