Quote From: regiec I was diagnosed with manic depression 7-8 years ago. My doctor wanted me to see a "shrink" to see if my problem was really bi-polar disease. I didn't have the time or the money to keep seeing this doctor. I did NOT like the meds because they made me someone else "zombie Like" .
Now Im 26 years old and I hate my day to day life. I have highs and lows. And once I notice my high, I just want to cry. This hyper feeling is very intense and the feelings are equally matched during the Lows, depressive or Rage/Anger. I have not been diagnosed bi polar, but, why does it take so long to diagnose it.? Why do the medicines destroy your authentic self.? If left untreated, why does it get worse.?
I can see why doctors use to think people with mental issues were possesed and put into asylums. I feel like such a dumb ass. Am I really this stupid that I cannot control my thoughts and actions. I know I dont want to yell and scream, but I cant stop myself anymore. Im tired of fighting it and I think now Im definitley losing this battle. Luckily Im going to see a doctor in a few days. Again why does it take sooo long to diagnose Bi polar disorder? I just want control over my actions and thoughts. At times I feel "normal" and at other times I feel like someone else.
