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March 10, 2006, 6:04 am PST
 Quote From: gigilola I have been on the boards before in other areas but just found this one because of the show last night. I have read all the posts and I feel like I have finally found people who really understand. As I stated in another post my boyfriend of 12 years is really supportive of me since I have started receiving treatment and I really appreciate his patience and everything with me but it's really not the same as he truly doesn't understand what I go through on a daily basis. I am so tired of constantly trying to be a different person, trying to portray a persona of being okay. My mind doesn't stop, it continues like a merry-go-round. Sometimes I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up, just make it all go away. My mind is my worst enemy.
These boards however, kind of put me at ease as I know I am not alone. There are people out there who are going through the same things, feel the same things, think the same way. It also makes me sad though to know someone else is living this hell. I've read the posts of some who are doing very well on their meds but they still have days that are not good. I guess I am expecting too much from the medication. My thoughts were that the meds would make everything go away, make everything better but I guess that's just not the case.
I don't know, anyway, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who shares on this board. I may just become a regular....... Hi there
I hope you do become a regular you have so much to share. By sharing it also is a step in the right direction to healing and becoming healthier. You talk about your mind never stopping and feeling like a merry go round...I totally relate to that. I asked questions and was told to tell my doctor. I described how I felt on paper and when I saw her next she added a new prescription...even though I am still not at the full dose (gradual buildup) I am feeling changes. I am also feeling healthier.
I am separated (need to get that divorce final)...but, I have a boyfriend of six weeks. I am not sharing this information with him...I hid all my medicine out of my medicine cabinet (just in case he looks in there). I don't know if this relationship will amount to anything...but I know he is starting to really like me. Especially, when he tells me he thinks of me and wants me to think about him (I feel like a silly teenager..lol). But, if I tell him...I just know he'll run the other way. But, I guess if it gets to that point...do I really have to tell (hey Mensan...are you reading this post...what do you think?)
Chat with you later Rhonda |
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