Replies to 'Depression'

I don't know if this is the right place for this post, no catagory really fit.  I came in hear because I am disappointed and a little depressed about everyting. 

Over the past year and a half, my husband and i have gone through some life changing moments.  I wish I could say that it was the loss of a loved one or something like that, but what we went through went much deeper.  We belonged to a small community fire department.  We were very involved.  We were both officers and we held other jobs around the fire house as well.  There was a man that was a member of this department, who thought that he needed to start stirring the pot, so to speak.  He would put ideas in peoples heads, only to stand back and say, I never told them to do that.  We had cadets (14 yo) on the department and he would tell them not to listen to anyone else except him.  He would come to board meetings and disrupt the meetings, making them drag on and on and on, sometime until midnigt and after.  Training was a joke, because unless we did something he was interested in, he would have a fit right in the middle of everything and bring it to a hault. At one point we had another member that was one of his followers.  Only this boy took everything a step further.  We as officers tried to get rid of him, or get him some help, so that he would be a descent human being.  This one night we were to have a officers meeting to discuss our options.  The officers had written letters to the chief with our complaints and suggestions on possible outcome.  When we got to the meeting, this awful man had half the town there in support of his follower, he had the media there and he took over the meeting and before it was over all the top officers walked out of the meeting.  The department was left with out any leadership.  They lost the chief, Asst. chief, Ems Leiut., Fire preventin Leiut., Butilding and mantenance  Captain, 5 EMT's and over 100 years of experience.  None of us went back.  For me, it has left a hole as big as it comes in  my soal.  I fel t like my heart was ripped out and smashed on the ground.  Even tho' i think I am over it, I am not.  I still can't talk about it with out feeling very hurt.  then...........My husband was sharing a shop facility with his brother.  They are both welders.  It was my husbands thoughts to join forces and build a business that everyone would want to use.  the brother is married to a severe alchoholic woman.  She took it upon herself to take over his business and run us out of business in the process and the brother just sat by and watched her do it.  So about a year ago we moved out of this situation and rented a shop on our own.  Business is better than it has ever been.  Better than we ever dreamed it would be.  But again, This abusive relationship, hurt us in all ways imaginable.  We don't even speak to them anymore. 

These are just 2 instances that really make me wonder, what is happening in the world?  It is so disappointing to know that these psycho people can wonder around in our society like normal people and just cause all the hate and discontent they want.  People like my husband and I try to be honest, do a good job, be fair and give 110 percent all the time.  But as it turns out, that is not good enough.  We are the weak stupid ones.  This has affected us so much, my husband and I both have high blood pressure now.  When all the stuff with the fire department  was going on my husband's blood pressure was so high, he had me take him to the emergency room and he was very near to having a stroke, and we are not at an age to be having strokes.  So I am very disappointed in the way society is today.  It depresses me to think that standing up straight, doing the right things and being nice to your neighbor, is the wrong thing to do.  People lke he and I should be put away some where.  We are so very wrong in our thinking.  And,.... We have no right to belong to any organization, because we are stupid and no one wants us around. (this is the attitude we are getting)  Every day is a fight for us.  I even encounter awful people around town.  We have a super walmart in our town.   when I go there, No one makes eye contact.  I have had people tail gating, if you will, with thier carts and if I stop to look at something or pick something off the shelf, I have them run right up my back.  These same people crash into my cart, because getting to that next item is way more important than saying excuse me.  If you say HI to someone they act like you have just pissed them off.  what is all this about?  Are people so nasty that they can't even stand themselves or anyone else?  I could really use some insight.  I feel like people can see "stupid" written on my forehead and I desearve what ever it is they want to dish out.  Just doing my everyday chores like, driving to work, grocery shopping, going to the post office is getting harder and harder.  I get so stressed out I get back to my car and I am out of breath.  I want to just run away. 

HELP!