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Your post is full of contradictions!! How can your lover be a devout Catholic who emphasizes that her marriage vows are very important, all the while having an affair for 8 months with you? I suspect that since you posted here, you know truly in your heart that this is all wrong, but because of your personal greed, you won't stay away from her. And because of her greed, she won't stay away from you, why should she when she has it made with everything the way it is?  

She already told you that she can't accept divorce, (more like "won't" accept divorce".) So now you are faced with either continueing to be her "water of life", which by the way is one of the oldest lines in the book, or taking charge of your life and making the decision that you DESERVE more then this relationship is giving you. 

Usually married people who have affairs do it to feel more attractive, vibrant, more "alive".... feelings that you get when you are doing something you know isn't right yet you are getting away with it, kind of like a crime. Your lover should be giving more of herself to her husband and less to you if she truly takes those vows seriously. Of course you are feeling uncertain, but you can't just wait around and let life pass you by while your lover has a whole other life without you. You can have a bond with another woman if you open yourself up to that decision. Can you picture yourself in 5 years from now? What will you be doing?  

I urge you to seek professional counceling, because you are in a serious situation that needs guidance. You can't do this on your own, and your lover isn't any help- she's more temptation. You deserve to love and be loved by someone else, don't settle for less then that.