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No I'm not seeing a psychiatrist. My insurance does not cover that. I would have to pay out-of-pocket and I just can not afford that. It's hard to not give up when all options are gone. I have nothing but my family and the clothes on our back. We live day by day, pay check by pay check, it's hard, but  we're getting by with what we've got. It's so hard not having a car where we live because we have no public transportation, like buses, trains, cabs, etc... Excuse my french but if you don't have a car here, you're up s***'s creek without a paddle. I have no family here except my husbands and they do what they can for us. And I hardly have any friends except one, but she lives about 20 miles away and has here own family to worry about. I have no way of being able to get out and go to support groups, meet people and talk to people face to face who's in my shoes or been there done that. Not only I'm I struggling with my past, but the present day is not making it any easier. I was told I had anxiety and an irregular heartbeat and that's about it. I have mood swings, I get headaches, chest pains/palpatations, pain in my arm's, back pain, I even started having irregular periods, went to a doctor for that too and found nothing. I just feel my life is falling apart and that I will be forever stuck in this nightmare. I know that I need help and that is why I've writen into Dr. Phil, literally begging him to help, with no avail. It just not meant for me to get professinal help. However, getting posts from people like you, brightens up my day and help me cope, even if it's for a little while. Thanks for your thoughtfulness, Patti