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April 10, 2006, 12:47 am PDT
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Quote From: normalitaHi,
I don't mean to sound harsh, but it sounds like you are very young. From the sound of your post, this whole situation could have been avoided. If something bad happened in your past, it should stay there. If you really like this guy, then deal with him in the present. If he makes you happy, then just enjoy that. Unless this guy is very stubborn, I would call him, or the next time you run in to him at a friends house, you need to take him somewhere private and tell him the whole story and that you are not mad at him and apologize. Ask him if you can start over.....If that is not good enough then he is not the one for you anyway. There are lots of other fish out there. You say you have Bipolar problems, get some help, so that it is not a problem anymore. Don't expect others to understand you. Because they won't. In my opinion suiside is not an option, you are hear on earth.....don't you want to stick around and see how your life turns out? Hearbreak is a fact of life. If your heart is not broken over love, it will be broken over something else. I want to get to be 90 years old and look back and say, WOW..... what a ride. It builds character!!!!! First of all, I'm not the only one at fault. I admit I screwed up, but he screwed up also. He's just as guilty as I am. And it's not worth it to mend fences with him, he's an ass anyways, and he's not worth my time. We're two peas in a pod as far as dealing with past issues. Secondly, your comment "the past belongs in the past and needs to stay there..." Oh, what an ignorant statement. I would like nothing more then to keep my past in the past. Easier said then done, and especially easier for someone like you to say, you're not me. The fact is, is that we all have baggage, and here's another "fact of life" you will always bring your past with you, no matter how painful it was, it will always be there. Yes, I have bipolar disorder, and yes I do think of suicide on a regular basis. That's yet another thing I would love, for one day, to not think about. There isn't an "off" switch. Lastly, yes I am young and I have a lot to learn, but learning doesn't stop at your age either. But, thank you for your comment, and I appreciate non-sugarcoated, blunt advice, and as you can see, I too, speak plainly. Thanks again, take care, and have a nice day.
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