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August 21, 2005, 9:57 am PDT
 Quote From: tamara25 A few months ago the death of my dog turned my whole life upside down. His death was only a small thing but for me it was as they say;" the last drop" Lost, unhappy, emotional, angry, and so on and on. People that where close to me, had asked me almost a year ago if there was something wrong with me? But i always answered No. Now after this event I had to say Yes, there is something wrong with me, but what?? I started looking for an answhere that never came, trying to fill the gaps wich i could not. Blaming people for my unhappyness. I needed help FAST!!! I always watch Dr. Phill on tv( yes we also see dr Phill here in Holland) and always found it a man with an answhere for every problem. And that gave me the idea to buy one of his books Defining your authentic self. I'll tell you this, it opened my eyes. I had to go back in my life and write down things and think about them. I always made choices in this world wich where not my choices. I was afraid that people might be angry with me, so everything i did, i did it so that everyone was happy. I whent to a school that i didn't like, got jobs that i didn't like and so much more. Sometimes i wished i had the knowledge then wich i have now!! Anyways To make a very long story short, After reading the book i decided to take my life in my own hands, To listen to my Auth. self and to leaf my old life behind. I started with a new life. Ill be going back to school again and hope No not hope, Going to make my life better, Much love Tamara In Summer 2003, I was in the midst of one of those "LONG STRETCH LIFE EVENT CYCLE", I was in shocked that I was never going to be put in for a promotion because my boss didn't want to be bothered, I was working with a handicap working and had to stand up and defend her right to work, entered a family death watch, was finally emerging from the grief I entered back in 1999, and I was diagnosed with hyperthryoidism and they wanted to kill my thyroid. There were more events occuring - but we don't have enough space for me to write it all down! I was just so stressed out, I just stepped back like you and wrote and wrote.
I too saw that my life wasn't working. I decided that I would take an early retirement if offered that July. On Dec. 31, 2004, I retired and I did give myself permission to just get off the roller coaster and take 1 healing step after the next.
I too am taking classes - I finally discovered what it is I've been doing for years -- I am a DOCUMENTATION DESIGNER. I just learned that last Friday.
What are you going to school for? I'm thinking about obtaining the Technical Writing Certificate that Cleveland State University is offering. I just need 5 more classes and I can apply for it.
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