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April 4, 2006, 6:50 am PDT
 Quote From: emma08 Yes, I do have a church that I go to, but I feel to weird to go and talk to my pastor because he has known my husband's mother for over 30 years. Plus I have already spoken to him once and it only help for that moment. I have a very good relationship with God and He has done so much for my family and me. I converted from being a Catholic to Baptist a little over 3 years ago, but I'm still struggling to live a Christain life, but love Jesus and so thankful He's a forgiving God. It is just so hard, I curse, scream, yell and fly off the deep end all the time, so how can I be a good Christain? It's like I live two lives. But I feel the same as you, I do too find it to be great therapy here at the message boards. Kris, I have no money, no car and I live in a very small town with no public transportation. So all I do is sit at home and think, think about how I was treated in the past, think about how I just talk to my 9 year-old daughter the night before, think about going to the fridge to grap a bit of comfort food, it's just so pathetic and sad and it just makes me so sick and angry. I'm the same with my kids, I hardly ever spend quality time with them, you know one on one, but I'm always home? I don't know what to do, that's why I'm here and everyone keeps telling me I need to get to a doctor and I have. I told my doctor how I felt, I may have not told her every single thing, but I made my point clear. And all she said was that I suffer from anxiety and an irregular heartbeat. I'm on Wellbutrin XL, which is suppose to help with my so-called anxiety and to lose weight, it's been over a year and nothing new, I still feel and look the same, as a matter of fact, I've gained more weight. And I'm on Metorol to help regulate my blood? I feel like my doctor doesn't even know what is wrong with me. Anyway, I'm sure I've bored you, thanks for the re-ply and hope you have a great day & God bless, always, Patti You are the only reason I venture to post one last time here. As I read your post, I was urged by God to share my faith with you. What is a 'good' Christian? I often wonder about that. You see every person falls short. Just because you appear righteous to the world, does that make you a better Christian? That's why our Savior's love is so important. He lived as we live. He advocates to our Father on our behalf. Just try each day to do what's right. If we had the ability to be perfect, salvation through Christ would not be needed.( I know I need it!) John 5:24 All have come short of the glory of God. Please don't give up on your faith because you think you are failing. God loves you for the trying, and I'm sure He smiles when we get something right. It's about what's in your heart. You have a good heart or you wouldn't care. Please keep trying. This is my opinion, anyone who might be bothered by it ,I apologize to in advance and say, "May God bless you and keep you lovingly!"
Write down things you want your doctor to know, I think Jane may have told you that. (Nice lady that Jane) Doctors bless their hearts, aren't God. They can't help you if they don't know the whole story, and unless they suspect abuse of some sort they cannot say anything to anyone about what you tell them. I told my doc. I went from 0-to-scream with my kids when they didn't do something right and that was getting to be pretty much everything. Guess what? He said that was my manic. What I'd seen on shows like ER, you might remember Sally Fields' roll, was not the only way to be Bi-polar. The media always spotlights the extremes in pretty much everything don't they?
When the weather gets nice where you are go walking, take the kids. I know part of me says, " oh boy what fun", but part of me also says, "Oh Boy! What fun!" Maybe someday the latter will be the only part I hear.
I hope and pray you find what you need. You seem so very sweet.
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April 4, 2006, 8:36 pm PDT
Quote From: emma08 Yes, I do have a church that I go to, but I feel to weird to go and talk to my pastor because he has known my husband's mother for over 30 years. Plus I have already spoken to him once and it only help for that moment. I have a very good relationship with God and He has done so much for my family and me. I converted from being a Catholic to Baptist a little over 3 years ago, but I'm still struggling to live a Christain life, but love Jesus and so thankful He's a forgiving God. It is just so hard, I curse, scream, yell and fly off the deep end all the time, so how can I be a good Christain? It's like I live two lives. But I feel the same as you, I do too find it to be great therapy here at the message boards. Kris, I have no money, no car and I live in a very small town with no public transportation. So all I do is sit at home and think, think about how I was treated in the past, think about how I just talk to my 9 year-old daughter the night before, think about going to the fridge to grap a bit of comfort food, it's just so pathetic and sad and it just makes me so sick and angry. I'm the same with my kids, I hardly ever spend quality time with them, you know one on one, but I'm always home? I don't know what to do, that's why I'm here and everyone keeps telling me I need to get to a doctor and I have. I told my doctor how I felt, I may have not told her every single thing, but I made my point clear. And all she said was that I suffer from anxiety and an irregular heartbeat. I'm on Wellbutrin XL, which is suppose to help with my so-called anxiety and to lose weight, it's been over a year and nothing new, I still feel and look the same, as a matter of fact, I've gained more weight. And I'm on Metorol to help regulate my blood? I feel like my doctor doesn't even know what is wrong with me. Anyway, I'm sure I've bored you, thanks for the re-ply and hope you have a great day & God bless, always, Patti Hi Patti, I am also on Wellbutrin XL. I actually had no idea that it was supposed to help you lose weight. I have in the past gone off meds and not gone to the dr to try to save money. It doesn't work. You have come a long way, but you still have a road to go. If you feel that your meds aren't working tell you dr that point blank. Tell her everything that is going on. They need to know in order to help you. I would also sit on the couch and eat comfort food. 45 lbs later, I'm trying. It's very hard because my husband loves food and eats big meals. If you need comfort food, make it fruits and veges. I had to remove all junk food from my house. I am too tempted. My nightly treat are Triscuits. Weight gain can also be caused by stress. Get more active with your kids. That will help you stay active. I now walk during my kids baseball and softball practices. I used to read a book and sit in the car. They are hard obstacles to overcome, but you can do it. You have all ready accomplished so much in your life. I am glad you have a good relationship with God. I believe that helps too. Have a great day. Kris |
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