I am sorry that your having such a rough time. How can they get a court order to tell you not to hurt yourself when its biological. if you need to be in the hospial you have to be in the hospital. i do self harm too. when i get under stress and anxiety i cut. i am not able to express myself very well and do it instead. i know i push away my therapist ect when they are getting too close. i am sorry that your sister is not talking with you thats hard. when you are going thru what you are going thru. it just intensivies the situation. i know from since my adoptive parents quit talking to me since i was commited to a psch hospital last year. they have pretty much disowned me. it hard to deal with it. Hope thing smooth out for you.
Thank-you for your feedback I really needed to hear from someone else besides my counselor. I know that I need to be in the hospital right now but I just feel so frustrated to the fact that all they do is put a bandaide on it and send you back out. I am sorry I am just responding now I have been out of town to help a friend who is having her second child and has a hard two yar old. But man am I tired I am not use to this.
