Replies to '04/17 Dangerous Kids'

I am a child of abuse that resulted all from my older brother.  Not only did he physically abuse me, but he also sexually abuse me.  He has turned my life into a complete hell.  I was stabbed multiple times by my brother.  He began to collect knives at a young age, and my parents did nothing about it, so I got the short end of the stick.  I remember waking up in the middle of the night, to see my brother standing over me in my bed with a knife to my throat.  I would always scream for my mother and she would come in to the room and comfort me, but Nathan was just sent back to his room.  He distroyed everything I ever had.  He broke everything, including my bedroom door, which meant that I had no way to keep him out.  He used to punch me and throw me down the stairs on a weekly basis.  He tripped me in the school hallways so that I would fall completely on my face.  When he got older the violence just got worse.  He got a car for his 16th bday, and when it wouldn't start, he totaled the car with a baseball bat.  When he and my father got in a fight, Nathan hid a rock behind his back, came up behind my dad, and tried to hit him with it but my dad instead turned and got him to the ground.

I have almost all horrible memories of childhood, and I will never be able to fix all the damage.  In attempts to make something out of my life, I am working on getting my Ph.D in Abnormal Psychology at a nearby University.  It helps me to try to sort out all the damage and pain that I am left with.  My parents never sent my older brother anywhere, he lived with me only one room away for 14 years, until my parents got divorced. 

I will always hold resentment toward my father and mother for NEVER doing anything to protect me.  Please if this is your family, don't forget about the innocent siblings who are tortured and ruined all because as parents you aren't sure of what action to take.  Any action is better than none.  I have all the odds stacked against me, and I am fighting to survive with myself and my pain! Don't allow this to happen to your children!  It was and is the worst thing a parent could ever do to a child!

If someone reads this and feels that there family may be in this position, please email me, I have only my personal experiences to speak from, but I am very open and honest.