Quote From: chocahIt sounds like the distance between you both (miles and lack of bonding) has left your son with absolutely no idea of who you are now. How about writing him a letter explaining the things you've learned up to this point in your life? Ask for forgiveness and let him know you love him what ever his response is. We're all guilty at sometime or another for gravitating toward "easier" relationships. When we step out of our comfort zone and address the "tough" relationships, as painful as that may be, we reap the biggest rewards and learn the most about ourselves and others. Your son may not want to come out of his comfort zone, that is why I think writing is beneficial. Face to face is high in stress and doesn't allow the people to reflect on the words spoken. Many times it can even spark some defensiveness resulting many times in miscommunications. Your right we can't erase the past but we can start today toward a different future.
Yesterday is History,Tomorrow a mystery,today is a "GIFT" this is why we call it the present. Take the gift of your sons' and your life today and leave yesterday in the past. Forgive yourself so your son can too.God has forgiven you,hasn't he? We all make bad choices and decesions.We just have to be willing to let go and press on. Take the time that you have left in life and spend it with your son and daughter as if each day is your last. If you don't forgive yourself and allow yourself to love your son and he love you, you may die never knowing how much you each were and are loved.
