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Quote From: confused1

i guess i'm not tired enough of it. i'm 5'7" tall and 320 lbs. i'm miserable and mad at myself. i had a membership to fitness club but that went bad. i had a job that i got off work early enough to meet my  brother at the club. i got down to 280 from 329. i was feeling better. really proud of myself. i lost that job, ( it was seasonal) and my new job made it hard to get to the club. now my member-ship has expired and i'm getting fat again. it took me 6 months to lose 49 pounds and about a month to put it back on.  i get up at 3:30 a.m. so i can start work at 5:00 a.m. i work till 5:00 p.m. usually. i do'nt feel like working out but i know i need to. i just can't seem to make myself do it. my brother has a new girlfriend also so he's out of the picture. i rarely seem him. were really not that close any- way. he's no support. he can eat whatever he wants and never gain a pound. for him when it comes to working out he could take it or leave it. he does'nt really need it. i do'nt have many friends so i'm on my own. i do'nt make friends easily because i have a hard time trusting people. it takes a long time for me to trust somebody. i'm not very outgoing. and it seems like when i was thinner it was easier to make contact with people. when your fat it's like nobody wants to get near you, like it's going to rub off on them. i've always battled my weight but not obese, just fat. i'm a bad procrastinator also. i bought dr. phils weight loss book but i can't seem to find time to read it. i'm not much on reading. i've bought a couple other weight loss books also, but i need to read them too. i have several self-help books, but again i need to read them. there's not enough time in the day. i need somebody to do this with me, but that's just not going to happen. i'll have to go it alone which is how it's been for me for 13 years now. this should be easy. i should be used to this.