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God, another birthday another day of feeling like crap. Well today is my 29th birthday and I'm sitting at home all alone with nothing to do, except house-work as usual. My life is so pathetic and sad and miserable. I went to my doctor and told her I think I'm suffering from depression, she asked me a few questions and disagreed and told me that I need to relax and not get so frustrated and stressed out and if I'm not feeling any better by next appointment we can "talk" about it. What the hell! Why is this happening to me? Why can't no one see what I feel? Why can't I get help? I'm literally begging for it. I guess because I don't think about killing myself or have unimagineable thoughts that I'm not suffering from anything but my own self pity. What should I tell my doctor? Should I tell her she's not doing her job? Every, single visit, I'm in the waiting room longer than I'm in seeing the doctor. She walks in and out so fast, it makes my head spin. Then she has her "assistant" come in and finish up. It's like she just looks at me, checks my vitals and then her "assistant" does the rest. The doctor doesn't even ask me what's wrong, the nurse does when I first get in there and then she just reads it off the paper and that's about it! She, her assistant, is the one that gives me the shots I need, she tells me what medicine I will be getting, she tells me when I need to come back, so on, so forth. It's like my doctor just blows me off, pushes me to the side and only thinks about what samples she could give me. Every visit, I get samples to try, samples that have really nothing to do with why I was there. Like once I came there for chest pain and tingling in my hands and for a sharp, shooting pain in my head, not a headache or migraine, just a pain and she gives me a sample of a new drug that prevents migraines? I'm no doctor, but what would that do? It didn't help and then she put me on a medicine that is for patients that have had heart attacks and that could cause a heart attack if you suddenly stop taking it, to help regulate my blood because I have an irregular heart beat. Well that hasn't helped either, I still feel like my heart quivers and honestly, I feel it has gotten worse since taking this medicine she's given me. Then about my depression, she says its not depression, its anxiety and put me on WellbutrinXL, well no change there either, I still feel like crap. I'm not asking for a miracle or a one time fix, I know it takes time, but it's been over a year and half and nothing as changed. And yes, I know there are people out there that has suffered with their illness for years before they found the right treatment, but what if you've already been suffereing for years and years and just want relief and then you go to your doctor and they say nothing is wrong with you and don't really look into it any further? Are you suppose to just leave it at that? Hey, I'm not mocking all doctors and nurses out there, i know there are really good, professinal people out there, just not where I go. For one thing it's a clinic, with hundreds of other doctors, half the patients there are on Medicaid, including myself and to them, I feel, were just another pay check and a ginnie pig for the samples they get from the drug companies.  I mean come on, they had like 10 other patients ahead of me that had the same appointment time as me! I waited an hour and a half, just to see my doctor for less than 5 minutes. However, she was able to see, and I'm not kidding, see 8 represenatives from different drug companies, you know the ones that come there in suits with their little brief cases and boxes with samples in it. God, it is so filled with red tape, its not even funny. Then on top of that when I was leaving and given my prescrib's to get filled, I asked her nurse assistant if what they had given me was covered under Medicaid, because I couldn't afford to pay full price and she said "oh yes, of course". Well, guess what, they were'nt and it was not the first time they had made that mistake. I had strep throat about a month and a half ago and they messed up and I couldn't get my med's. Then on Easter Sunday, I began to feel sick again and again I got strep throat, that's twice in less then 2 months, don't that tell ya something? And again, they gave me med's that wasn;t covered and you know what my doctor had the b***'s to say? I gave you some samples, just use them for now.........gee thanks for caring doc. Anyway, this has just not been a very good week for me. Am I over reacting or is my doctor and her "assistant's" slacking a little bit? I don't know, but in June I change doctors and I will be able to see a different doctor, hopefully this one will help me with ALL my problems and issues. Please continue to pray for me, I really need it and thanks for listening.   

Thank you, Patti   

God, another birthday another day of feeling like crap. Well today is my 29th birthday and I'm sitting at home all alone with nothing to do, except house-work as usual. My life is so pathetic and sad and miserable. I went to my doctor and told her I think I'm suffering from depression, she asked me a few questions and disagreed and told me that I need to relax and not get so frustrated and stressed out and if I'm not feeling any better by next appointment we can "talk" about it. What the hell! Why is this happening to me? Why can't no one see what I feel? Why can't I get help? I'm literally begging for it. I guess because I don't think about killing myself or have unimagineable thoughts that I'm not suffering from anything but my own self pity. What should I tell my doctor? Should I tell her she's not doing her job? Every, single visit, I'm in the waiting room longer than I'm in seeing the doctor. She walks in and out so fast, it makes my head spin. Then she has her "assistant" come in and finish up. It's like she just looks at me, checks my vitals and then her "assistant" does the rest. The doctor doesn't even ask me what's wrong, the nurse does when I first get in there and then she just reads it off the paper and that's about it! She, her assistant, is the one that gives me the shots I need, she tells me what medicine I will be getting, she tells me when I need to come back, so on, so forth. It's like my doctor just blows me off, pushes me to the side and only thinks about what samples she could give me. Every visit, I get samples to try, samples that have really nothing to do with why I was there. Like once I came there for chest pain and tingling in my hands and for a sharp, shooting pain in my head, not a headache or migraine, just a pain and she gives me a sample of a new drug that prevents migraines? I'm no doctor, but what would that do? It didn't help and then she put me on a medicine that is for patients that have had heart attacks and that could cause a heart attack if you suddenly stop taking it, to help regulate my blood because I have an irregular heart beat. Well that hasn't helped either, I still feel like my heart quivers and honestly, I feel it has gotten worse since taking this medicine she's given me. Then about my depression, she says its not depression, its anxiety and put me on WellbutrinXL, well no change there either, I still feel like crap. I'm not asking for a miracle or a one time fix, I know it takes time, but it's been over a year and half and nothing as changed. And yes, I know there are people out there that has suffered with their illness for years before they found the right treatment, but what if you've already been suffereing for years and years and just want relief and then you go to your doctor and they say nothing is wrong with you and don't really look into it any further? Are you suppose to just leave it at that? Hey, I'm not mocking all doctors and nurses out there, i know there are really good, professinal people out there, just not where I go. For one thing it's a clinic, with hundreds of other doctors, half the patients there are on Medicaid, including myself and to them, I feel, were just another pay check and a ginnie pig for the samples they get from the drug companies.  I mean come on, they had like 10 other patients ahead of me that had the same appointment time as me! I waited an hour and a half, just to see my doctor for less than 5 minutes. However, she was able to see, and I'm not kidding, see 8 represenatives from different drug companies, you know the ones that come there in suits with their little brief cases and boxes with samples in it. God, it is so filled with red tape, its not even funny. Then on top of that when I was leaving and given my prescrib's to get filled, I asked her nurse assistant if what they had given me was covered under Medicaid, because I couldn't afford to pay full price and she said "oh yes, of course". Well, guess what, they were'nt and it was not the first time they had made that mistake. I had strep throat about a month and a half ago and they messed up and I couldn't get my med's. Then on Easter Sunday, I began to feel sick again and again I got strep throat, that's twice in less then 2 months, don't that tell ya something? And again, they gave me med's that wasn;t covered and you know what my doctor had the b***'s to say? I gave you some samples, just use them for now.........gee thanks for caring doc. Anyway, this has just not been a very good week for me. Am I over reacting or is my doctor and her "assistant's" slacking a little bit? I don't know, but in June I change doctors and I will be able to see a different doctor, hopefully this one will help me with ALL my problems and issues. Please continue to pray for me, I really need it and thanks for listening.   

Thank you, Patti