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May 4, 2006, 6:54 pm PDT
 Quote From: sweet2u
I take the time to read all entries b/c i embarrasingly dont have much to do b/c i make my children pitch in and hubby too. I know what u are feeling b/c I feel it too. I am so sorry u r in pain and I will pray for u too. My family gets aggiated with me alot b/c they have to do so much around here and I cant always help--my hubby doesnt know if he will come home to a home cooked meal every day b/c if i am hurting too bad I cant stand up to cook long. We cant go may places or stay to long b/c i never know when my legs will give out. It is truely a miserable life. My kids sometimes hate me cause I cant do things w/ them or go where they wanna go so, my ex and his wife do alot of things with them that I wish i could do. That makes me very sad. They have never been to disney world & if & when we go I will be in a motorized wheelchair or hub around---that scares me to death. I wont be able to enjoy it with them. Yet the man who cheated on me cause of my condition will be able too. THAT MAKES ME REALLY PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, I do understand u along with many ppl here.
Wendy AKA SWEET2U I know what you mean about cooking. For the last 4 1/2 years I lived in a town with no where to get anything to eat if you didn't feel like cooking. No pizza delivery, or anything. They didn't even deliver our mail, so someone would have to go to the box to get it. Now I live where I can get a bucket of chicken or a pizza when I am just too sore. Standing too long really brings on the pain. I really hope that your kids don't "hate" you. I know that before my oldest daughter left home at 17, she had to help me a lot. I needed her help and it hurt when she left. It was like she didn't care about me because she knew I needed her. My 7 yr old helps me pick up things since she is closer to the ground. I can only get around better now because of pain meds, but the way things are going, I won't have them and then I know I will be bed-ridden. I am glad there are people who understand. It hurts to even type sitting up, so I lay on the bed with it on my lap. I would give ANYTHING IN THE WORLD to be like I was before the wreck. I took my health for granted. I envy people who can just bend over at the waist and pick something up. I was hit by a illegal immigrant in the U.S. for 15 years at that time. I bet he's been here 20 now. I am angry that I will probably never be pain free and it will just get worse as I get older. I am only in my 30's now and I dread getting up in my 60's or more if I make it that long. Just how bad will it be then? My goodness, it is so bad now. I don't even know what my purpose is here anymore, since I feel like I am so useless. I hope you get to feeling better Wendy. |
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