Quote From: sweet2u
HI,
I AM WENDY AND I AM VERY CONFUSED BECAUSE BEFORE THE YR 2000 I WAS OK SO I THINK ANYWAY MY HUBBY CHEATED ON ME SEVERAL TIMES AND FROM THAT POINT ON I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH ISSUES I NOW HAVE. I AM NOW DIVORCED AND REMARRIED, I HAVE 3 KIDS FROM 1ST MARRIAGE AND I HATE HOW I TREAT MY FAMILY. I GO OFF YELLING AND HITTING AND THROWING THINGS, IT GETS UNCONTROLLABLE THEN I FEEL BAD AND GUILTY. I DONT KNOW WHAT MAKES ME GO OFF. I AM ALWAYS DEPRESSED AND I HAT EHOW I LOOK, FAT ,UGLY AND I DONT KNOW WHY MY PRESENT HUSBAND EVEN SEES IN ME. WE WENT TO COUNSELING BUT STOPPED BECAUSE I DIDNT LIKE WHAT SHE WAS TELLING ME, SHE WAS PUTTING ALL THE BLAME ON ME AND I HATED THAT. I HAVE A PROBLEM NO ONE CAN SEEM TO FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS, I AM VERY DIZZY MY HEAD HURTS I HAVE A WIERD FEELING THAT IS HARD TO DESCRIBE IT IS LIKE I AM FLOATING AROUND ON A CLOUD LIKE A HAZYNESS IS AROUND ME. I STAY DEPRESSED AND EVEN TRIED TO KILL MYSELF IN 2004, OBVIOSLY UNSUCCESSFUL. I STILL DO THINK OF SUICIDE TIME TO TIME. I SLEEP ALOT AND I HATE GOING IN PUBLIC, I USED TO BE IN PUBLIC ALL THE TIME. I WAS ALWAYS AN OUTGOING PERSON AND WHEN I THINK BACK TO WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I WAS HAPPY, TRUELY HAPPY IT WAS BEFORE I FOUND OUT MY 1ST HUSBAND CHEATED ON ME WITH PROSTITUTES WHICH I HAD TO GO GET HIM OUT OF JAIL FOR IT. I CANT SEEM TO LET GO OF THE PAST, WHY AM I CLINGING ON TO MY PAST? WHY CANT I MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY? IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME PLEASE DO EMAIL ME SWEET2U72875@YAHOO.COM
CONFUSED & SAD,
WENDY
if you are bipolar is to go to a psychiatrist--to a community mental health clinic if you can't afford a private one and get a diagnosis. That's the only thing I can advise. Know that a diagnosis of bipolar is not an easy one and the doctor has to know quite a bit a about you. From what you are saying I would be more inclined to believe that you are suffering from depression, but I am no doctor. I suggest you visit one and get some treatment, especially since you know you need it.
Let us know how you do, we care about you.
