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May 25, 2006, 1:58 pm PDT
 Quote From: brokechain I have the same problem my boyfriend of 3 yrs has a problem with crack and crank. At first he was really bad off I mean stealing not working all he wanted was to get high . Didn't matter have much he hurt anyone all he was about was the dope , but now he kinda chilled out hes working a full time job. Although he still goes back down the dope road. I personally don't understand this addition. I mean sometime it still like it would be simply to say OK no more living like this. It has made me crazy all I do is worry what hes doing and where hes at ,when he comes home from work I'm looking at him to see if there are any sign of using ( IS HE HIGH ) I Give him drug test an yes hes failed some an when he does the test are wrong I mean what is he thinking . I try my best to be there for him , but for the past three years this as consumed my life . My husband have been together for 7 years. We have been married for 5 years and have 2 children. In 1999 he was hospitalized b/c he could got real sick from using speed. He had injected and got extremely sick. Dating at the time I had no idea he used. He was in the hospital for 52 days. He spent 30 of those days in ICU. He spent 21 of those days on a ventilator. I had no idea what put him there until 10 days before he got out of the hospital. We continue to stay together thinking he learned his lesson. Well 18 months ago he relapsed. He is now using crystal meth. I just found out 3 months ago. It is hard to watch someone you love go through it. I look at him and my heart breaks. I do constantly worry about him and wonder what is going on behind my back. When I found out he told me he has been trying to quit but he can't. He has told he hates what he has become b/c that's not who he wants to be. We've talked about what we need to do to get help. He called different rehab places to talk to them. The catch, he has not gone. So I am like you I think it would be easier to leave. Then you ask yourself what would happen if I did leave. I love him so much because he is my best friend and the love of my life. There is just something about this drug that just sets all that aside even if he feels that way about me. I would be more than happy to talk to you. You can email me at laceydsandhoff@yahoo.com |
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