Replies to 'Self Image'

Hi. My names Tiffany. I'm 16 and i'm from Starkville, MS. I know exactly how you feel. I just got finished replying to someone who responded to my message. I found out she's just me, and that we share the same pain. Once i read what you wrote, i thought there's a lot of people like me. But then again, i knew that there are alot of people like this. Like you, i can't stand to look at myself in a mirror, and somedays it' ok and somedays it's not. I feel worthless almost everyday, even if i'm having the best day, there's something in the back of my mind telling my that i'm not worth sh_t. It got so bad at one point that i started cutting myself as if i was trying to find more pain to replace the one i already had. I get this self image problem from my mom except i think it chose to show up in me more than her. Sometimes she's the problem. I've even got a boyfriend who tells more than anyone that i'm the most beautiful thing he's laid eyes on. You don't know how frustrated i get b/c i've seen so many people who are drop dead gorgeous and i think i look, well, dead. Or at least i feel like i want to be. I try so hard to make him think that i believe him just to make him happy, but the feeling lingers. I'm gettin better at this problem. I just tell myself that "Hey, there's no one  on this Earth that is like me. No one has the personality that i do nor do they have my body. And i refuse to let the voice in my head do anymore damage to me. I'm beautiful no matter what i think and there's nothing anyone can do about it to change my mind." Sometimes it's hard for me to accept this, it really doesn't get as skin deep as it used to. I think you should give it a try and see where it takes you and if that doesn't work then try giving the voice the cold shoulder. I'm starting to and it's getting better. I hope this helps and i hope you know that you are beautiful, you've just gotta let yourself give into that fact. Keep me posted. See ya!