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Quote From: scales74

This is my first time here,so i'm a little scared.First of all just know I do not judge people until I get to know you and then I still might not judge.I have been judged my entire life.I am 31 years young,married to a somewhat controlling man.I am overweight,I am a housewife,no children.We have been trying for 11 yrs.I have a very low self esteem.My husband has always said I am pretty,but for the last month he has said I need to lose weight and exercise.He's not exacly mr.universe.I do not look in full body mirrors because I hate myself and the way I look.I am 5ft7in,and weigh around 230lbs,blonde hair,grn eyes.Last year my husband and i separated for a couple months due to his anger problem.He was put on meds,recommended to go to anger mngment classes.He took the meds for about 3months went to only 1 class.I suffer from panic/anxiety disorder.Hey noones perfect,we all have our downfalls.I am unable to work because of this.I have always wanted to be a country singer,actress,voiceover,etc..I am the type of person who likes to help others.I have a mentally disabled sister,my mom has severe heart disease,my mother-in-law is bipolar and I usually help them whenever i can.I have been through quite a bit in my life.I just don't know what to do about my self image.There are days i do not want to face the world.I just sit and think of how disgusting i look and how fat i am..When my husband comes home from work he asks me if I exercised today.My reply of course "no,didn't have the energy" I do not have the energy,and sometimes my husband makes me feel like i'm a bad wife,cuz i might not have done the laundry,vacuumed etc...He has asked what do you do?I just feel horrible,useless,and alone.Can I actually feel exhausted about feeling like this?Is there anyone who feels like this,or am i actually crazy.I feel very angry at my husband sometimes for things he says to me,or his actions.I know I could never make it without him.I feel so alone.Please let me know if you feel like this.My husband will probably get angry if he finds this,so please only contact me here.Thank you.

Quote From: scales74

This is my first time here,so i'm a little scared.First of all just know I do not judge people until I get to know you and then I still might not judge.I have been judged my entire life.I am 31 years young,married to a somewhat controlling man.I am overweight,I am a housewife,no children.We have been trying for 11 yrs.I have a very low self esteem.My husband has always said I am pretty,but for the last month he has said I need to lose weight and exercise.He's not exacly mr.universe.I do not look in full body mirrors because I hate myself and the way I look.I am 5ft7in,and weigh around 230lbs,blonde hair,grn eyes.Last year my husband and i separated for a couple months due to his anger problem.He was put on meds,recommended to go to anger mngment classes.He took the meds for about 3months went to only 1 class.I suffer from panic/anxiety disorder.Hey noones perfect,we all have our downfalls.I am unable to work because of this.I have always wanted to be a country singer,actress,voiceover,etc..I am the type of person who likes to help others.I have a mentally disabled sister,my mom has severe heart disease,my mother-in-law is bipolar and I usually help them whenever i can.I have been through quite a bit in my life.I just don't know what to do about my self image.There are days i do not want to face the world.I just sit and think of how disgusting i look and how fat i am..When my husband comes home from work he asks me if I exercised today.My reply of course "no,didn't have the energy" I do not have the energy,and sometimes my husband makes me feel like i'm a bad wife,cuz i might not have done the laundry,vacuumed etc...He has asked what do you do?I just feel horrible,useless,and alone.Can I actually feel exhausted about feeling like this?Is there anyone who feels like this,or am i actually crazy.I feel very angry at my husband sometimes for things he says to me,or his actions.I know I could never make it without him.I feel so alone.Please let me know if you feel like this.My husband will probably get angry if he finds this,so please only contact me here.Thank you.