Quote From: swheeles3I am bipolar. I am losing the battle, and I dont want to. I am tierd of this roller coaster. I want my family to be happy. I want to be who I was before. I miss me so very much. I want to be a good mother and I want to be the wife that my husband deserves. He recently left me. Tierd of taking care of me and the constant drama and hurt in his life. I miss him very much. I miss me even more. I have not had a lot of success in finding a therapist to help us. We are military and our insurance will not pay for that much. I dont want to live like this anymore. I want help. I want someone to help my husband with his feelings, too. I want my kids to have thier mother back. It just all seems so far away right now. I dont want to lose my family and it is slipping away fast.
I know how you feel, and it sounds like depression. I was just feeling that same way about my bipolar last month. You need to get a medication adjustment or at least talk to a psychiatrist about medication ASAP.
Your husband could join an online support group. There is one at www.bpso.org just for spouses.
My son finally said to me last Sunday that he was glad to have me "up and about again." The medicine made all the difference.
Hold on! It will get better.
