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May 23, 2006, 4:41 am PDT
42 Days Now
Quote From: legend17 I recently quit drinking (42 days now) and I do know that I used alcohol for all of the wrong reasons. It took about a week for me to start thinking clearly again and now that I can I do not ever want to drink again. When I was drinking it was daily and as much as I could drink from about 11am on until I would black out. The black outs were the worst because I don't remember what happened. I would fight with my husband and not know what I did. The police got involved on 3 different occasions and now I am facing domestic violence charges. Alcohol is a dangerous drug and I wish I would have never started to drink. Since I have stopped my husband stopped 10 days later and our family is finally healing. Our kids are starting to get along and there haven't been any negative words in our family. We have all enrolled in counseling for the good of ourselves and are accepting all of these wonderful life changes. We now know that we don't have to drink alcohol to have a good time. I hope everyone that has a problem will not get to the extreme that I did because it is hard to pull yourself together. With the help of some A A groups I have new friends that I can truly call my family. Thank GOD!! 42 days is a long time~congratulations and every day is a new day for you, do not drink. Every day, after the day is through, say, "today is a wonderful day, I thank God, I do not drink." I certainly feel empathy for you, and I totally know the feelings of a family healing. Nobody believed I would stop, their answer was "yeah,right". It is not about what other people think, it is about you, and your family. In my heaviest drinking time, my daughter was 15. She had no respect for me at all. I feel that (at that time), I really did not give a rat's rear what anyone thought about me, but........oh my God, my daughter, my only daughter, my sweet baby girl, when she finally told me I was going to be a homeless baglady, and she was sick of me, it burned a hole into my heart. When I think about that night, as she picked up the contents of my purse, scattered all over the driveway, as I weaved all over, crashing into the hood of the car, I still, today, 17 years later, feel that pain of that statement. She said the right thing. You are doing the right thing, it takes a long time to regain your trust from your family, and their respect. You should be so very proud of yourself, you are winning the battle of the devil himself, and I am just not kidding. Keep it up, you are in my thoughts. Linda.
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