Replies to 'Childhood Sexual Abuse Support'

Quote From: jennypooh4

I was sexual abused twice as a child. The first time I was 5 yrs old. They offender  was my brothers best friend , He put me and my younger sister on the bus. One day he decided to keep me home. I wont go in to the horrific things he did to me.  It happened from the time I was 5 until I was almost 8. I was scared to tell anyone. He told me I would get in trouble. And no one would believe me. It did not stop until one day me, and my sister went to the store for my mom. My sister was 3 yrs younger then me. One the way back from the store he told us to go in the woods and he would show us the squirrels.. Once there he told my sister to take off her pants. I ran home and told mom that he made us go in the woods and he was still in the woods with my sister. I did not tell her what he was doing in fear me and my sister would get in trouble.  She told me to go get them and to tell them if not home in 5  minutes she was coming to get them which I did. And he had already stoped and they where walking back. I do not think he messed with her because it scared him when I ran home to get mom. It never happened again after that day. Then when I was 11 I was molested by my older cousin. His mom was babysitting me one summer while my dad was working. She caught him and spanked both of us. He told her that I wanted it. She told my dad when he got home again I was spanked. I never told anyone the truth about it. And I never told anyone about my brothers friend. It for me confirmed what the first abuser told me that I would get in trouble. I never even talked about it with anyone until 3 yrs ago. I told my husband a few months after we met. He was the only person I ever trusted. It still haunts me. I am over protective with my children. It affected my life in so many ways. I feel alot of guilt because I did not tell. My cousin not only molested me but he molested all of my other cousins, his dad girlfriends little boy and even his own younger brother. If I would have told I may could have prvented the others from going through that. My advice to anyone that may be going through that please tell some one. Its not your fault. You did nothing to deserve that.. It in no way is anything you did or did not do. Find some one you can tell if not your parents a teacher, a counseler, a paster.  You dont have to go through it alone. I felt so alone for so many years. When I told my husband it was such a releif. Just to have some one I could talk to about it.  I am sorry to all of you that have had to go though abuse. My prayers are with each and every one of you.

Quote From: jennypooh4

I was sexual abused twice as a child. The first time I was 5 yrs old. They offender  was my brothers best friend , He put me and my younger sister on the bus. One day he decided to keep me home. I wont go in to the horrific things he did to me.  It happened from the time I was 5 until I was almost 8. I was scared to tell anyone. He told me I would get in trouble. And no one would believe me. It did not stop until one day me, and my sister went to the store for my mom. My sister was 3 yrs younger then me. One the way back from the store he told us to go in the woods and he would show us the squirrels.. Once there he told my sister to take off her pants. I ran home and told mom that he made us go in the woods and he was still in the woods with my sister. I did not tell her what he was doing in fear me and my sister would get in trouble.  She told me to go get them and to tell them if not home in 5  minutes she was coming to get them which I did. And he had already stoped and they where walking back. I do not think he messed with her because it scared him when I ran home to get mom. It never happened again after that day. Then when I was 11 I was molested by my older cousin. His mom was babysitting me one summer while my dad was working. She caught him and spanked both of us. He told her that I wanted it. She told my dad when he got home again I was spanked. I never told anyone the truth about it. And I never told anyone about my brothers friend. It for me confirmed what the first abuser told me that I would get in trouble. I never even talked about it with anyone until 3 yrs ago. I told my husband a few months after we met. He was the only person I ever trusted. It still haunts me. I am over protective with my children. It affected my life in so many ways. I feel alot of guilt because I did not tell. My cousin not only molested me but he molested all of my other cousins, his dad girlfriends little boy and even his own younger brother. If I would have told I may could have prvented the others from going through that. My advice to anyone that may be going through that please tell some one. Its not your fault. You did nothing to deserve that.. It in no way is anything you did or did not do. Find some one you can tell if not your parents a teacher, a counseler, a paster.  You dont have to go through it alone. I felt so alone for so many years. When I told my husband it was such a releif. Just to have some one I could talk to about it.  I am sorry to all of you that have had to go though abuse. My prayers are with each and every one of you.