Quote From: Well i am 26 years old and live in Texas. I just recently got married in April. I have a son who just turned 3 in June. This month has been very overbearing for me as my son is spending the month with his dad (we will refer to him as the A$$). So for the first time in 3 years my son is gone for 30 days. This has had me down really bad, and I am trying so hard to be happy. I thought that maybe this would be good for my new husband and I to spend some alone time together. Boy was I wrong! The first week I couldn't get off the couch, I would come home from work, get a beer and get on the couch. That is where I would stay until it was bed time. The 2nd week I ventured out a little, but only to my moms everyday to get away from our house. This past week was okay because we got our flooring in to remodel my sons room, so I was excited about that. This week is not starting off so well. I am having all of the doubts about why I got married and I am picking out all of the bad qualities about my husband. I think I am losing my mind...I really do!
I am so sorry you miss you little one. I don't know how I would cope if I were in your shoes. I am glad you have your mom and your hubby though. And it is natural to feel like you may have made a wrong decission when you are in a vulnerable place. Missing the baby you have been with almost every day of his life qaulifies as a sore spot. You have every right to worry.
Just try not to be too hard on yourself or him right now. If he is anything like mine he is beside himself trying to think of a way to comfort you or cheer you up. Guys are just wired differently then we are and to them, what might be a good idea to distract us, may to us be dissaster! I know my hubby likes to work on go carts, golf carts, four wheelers, things like that normally calm him down if he needs a distraction so he thinks they will help me too. LOL I wouldn't know what to do other than ride these things!
Now I am not trying to make light of your situation at all. If you really have doubts, serious doubts deep in your heart, then you need to find the source of them and get it out and look at them for what they are. Because sometimes for me, it is only anxiety that is tearing me up inside making me doubt what I know is true. But if they are real, you should deal with them too. You deserve to be happy in every facet of your life.
Just keep in mind that what you are going through, it could really be Depression and you might want to talk to your doctor about it if it continues after your son comes home. I am here if you need me. Angel
