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July 29, 2005, 10:25 am PDT
Bulimia
Quote From: hisjewelI was reading your message to this other person...... If you wouldn't have had your child to look after well ooooooo I don't know...... anyway grrrrrrr oooo never mind but i started this so i am not going to erase it now.... if i start the post i am going to post it (most of the time anyway) what if you wouldn't have had a child to look after and care for and protect (if imust say it that way) from what you had faced......... i don't know how to ask what i am trying to ask........ did you ever just wish that you could disappear? I am so proud of you by the way that you stopped!!! how long has it been? Hi hisjewel,
It has been aprox 5 years since I purged, however, I have binged a few times, aprox 1 1/2 years ago ( when I was preg. with my 3rd child), but I was able to control that -- it very limited was limited, and brought on by extreme stress. I can not say if I would have continued in a distressed eating pattern or not, if I had not had children. I don't really deal in "what ifs". I find it more helpful and healthful to deal with the hear and now -- it helps me to stay focused. And, yes, there are many times I just want to disappear! But I take each day as it comes and I get through. I go to the gym every day with the kids, so it gives me a much needed break away and I can focus on just me for 2 hours. It's wonderful and helps me to distress and get fit at the same time.
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