Thank you for your reply. I'm glad I'm not the only one in this position =) I think he knows how I feel about having more children. I did tell him how I felt about it, and he gave me the look of sadness like he would love to have children with me someday and I think that he thought I meant I didn't want to have any more kids at all. I'm not completely shunning the idea, just not right now. I don't think either of us are ready for that yet. We have only been together a little more than 6 months, and I promised myself that the next person I have children with I would marry first. Talk about commitment =) I would love to marry him, but he is not ready for that step quite yet, ya know? I will wait though, we are in no hurry. I know that we are going to be together for a long time, if not forever. I am sorry that you are not able to see your daughter. I know exactly how you feel about that. Every day is a struggle to even breathe, but you have to for HER =) Hang in there, I will pray for you.
~Joanna
