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jazzz6

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July 25, 2005, 12:28 pm PDT

I CAN RELATE

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

I STARTED COLLEGE TO BECOME A LICENSED COUNSELOR... CAVED IN AND TOOK THE ROAD OF LEAST RESISTANCE, ACCOUNTING. IT'S DIFFENTLY NOT MY CALLING, ALTHOUGH I BELIEVE I HAVE EXCELLED IN THE AREA. THAT'S MY NATURE, NOT MY CALL. I TOO HAVE ENJOYED MY FAMILIES, AND HAVE DONE NEARLY EQUAL AMOUNTS OF MATH TO LISTENING. IT'S OFTEN BEEN A JOKE ABOUT PUTTING IN A RECLINER. WELL I ENJOYED THAT PART OF MY JOB MUCH MORE THAN THE TAX END. BEING THAT I HAVE $$$$ RESPONSIBLITIES I KEPT PUSHING FORWARD. LIKE YOU I AM SINGLE AND ALWAYS CONSIDERED MYSELF FIT AND ATTRACTIVE. NOT SO OF LATE, SINCE MY TRACTOR ACCIDENT I CAME TO HATE MY BODY, ASHAMED OF IT, I LOST 20 POUNDS WHICH I DIDN'T NEED TO LOOSE, HANGING SKIN. YUK YUK. ALL THIS MERELY ADDED TO THE EXISTING STRESS. I HAVE SOME PROPERTY UP FOR SALE AND WILL BE ABLE TO PAY OFF MY MORTGAGE. THIS WILL GIVE ME TIME AND TH E ABILITY TO FIND MY TRUE LOVE WHAT EVER THAT IS. I'M ONLY SURE IT'S NOT DOING TAXES. AS FOR MY LOVE LIFE THERE ISN'T ONE...... I WAS ALWAYS PRETTY CONTENT WITH MY JOBS, HOME AND WORK. HORSES, DOGS, ETC. MY RECOVERY HAS ENDED THE HORSEY THING AND I NEED SOMETHING. I WOULD LIKE A MALE BUDDY TO PLAY WITH, NOT NECESSARILY SEXUAL, BUT THAT MIGHT BE OK????? I AM GOING TO WORK THIS PROGRAM, TRY TO FIND MY OWN ROAD BLOCKS, AND HOPEFULLY THE SECOND HALF OF MY LIFE WILL PROVE TO BE MORE REWARDING... ENJOYE D READING YOUR MESSAGE

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christluv

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July 25, 2005, 12:59 pm PDT

It's Ok Monica

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

I have a different situation, but I have lots of friends and clients in your place. I reccomend alot of books, as I don't have all the Answers. Did you read "Running with Wolves"? I forget the author right now, but I think you would benefit from it! Good luck to you!

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July 26, 2005, 7:25 am PDT

Sounds like a rut...

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

Hi Monica, it sounds like you are in a rut with your thinking - are you judging you life as NOT RIGHT because you are alone? You are providing people with so much help and assistance and yet, you sound like you are so unhappy because of your "need a man" thinking. Do you realize you wrote it out twice in your message?

It sounds like are living off reservation or not near a Indian community. Maybe it's time for you to add other things into your life that will help meet people. For example - get into Native Dancing -- the pow pows are everywhere and brings together native americans from all over. In Nothern Ohio, there are 2-3 of them every summer. There's also Native American neighborhood organizations as well.

If being with a non-native is okay with you, then look into joining a running club or swimming club. Check the web to see if there is one in your area.

Your higher self chosed the right path professionally - you had to go out and go to a school, had to join a professional society or 2. I know that ACES is the native american engineering society - look for a mental health one.

Monica, it means spreading yourself out - it means meeting people that have the same interest as you. Your day is filled with people and can be exhausting at the end of the day. However, if you don't step out of the rut of your 24/7 life, you will continue to tear apart your day when you get home. Challenge those thoughts because if you really were hurting people, you would know when did at work! Stop beating yourself up and make your list of what you want in a mate, what do you want to share (for me, I want to meet someone who is into Orienteering). Make a list of what you can do to GO OUT & MEET NEW PEOPLE.

Marcia

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July 26, 2005, 7:37 am PDT

Turtleplus,

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

It sounds like you've hit that time in your life where you're "taking stock." It seems you are dissatisfied with your off time, and are thinking maybe the job is the fault. Please don't think this way. You said yourself that it feels natural and that you have fun with it, despite the fact that it can be stressful. I'm sure that you help many people who forget to say thank-you, but they are indebted nevertheless. It sounds like you may have regrets about not having a family of your own? This is very natural at your stage in life, just remember that it too shall pass. There are many different kinds of family, not just the ones that we think of first. Maybe it's time to do something you've always wanted to do, but never gave yourself permission to do? BTW, turtles are sacred to Hawaiians, you see them everywhere over there.

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teri_id

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July 26, 2005, 7:44 am PDT

similarities

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

Monica,

When I worked in the hotel industry years ago, I had a good friend who was the head housekeeper for a rather upscale hotel. She had the place spotless! She worked hard to keep her staff on task and thorough. Well, one day I went to her home for a get-together and I was shocked to see a dusty, cluttered home! I don't know why I was so shocked...as a teenager I used to detail cars, yet my car was always dirty and I never vacuumed it.

My point is, often when we are organized in our profession, we tend to overfunction/underfunction in our personal lives. You stay trim, fit, and hope to someday attract a mate, yet I wonder where you have time to go where you would meet someone who could potentially fill that role. Of course, having Spirit as a companion is not a bad thing, and learning to live with yourself is a good thing, being alone can be quite lonely.

I suppose one thing I would do is identify my needs and make a plan to fulfill them, keeping in mind I need to be open and listening for the "whispers", as I call them. Quite often we pray and ask for guidance, listening for a shout as an answer when really the gentle whispers are the ones that carry the true message, if that makes any sense.

I commend you on your journey my heart goes to you with smiles and good energy.

Teri

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June 13, 2006, 11:55 am PDT

B;essings

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Hello there,

I am new to message boards and don't often get to post/get on the net. I am 45yrs old, single professional counselor and just feeling really lost on my spirit's journey. I spend a lot of time just working with families and adolescents and trying to fit in time for myself. I like to jog, and do so 4miles per day, and swim for 2 miles, it helps to reduce stress, keeps me fit and trim and hopefully makes me attractive to a potential mate. I am Native American and participate to two different worlds. It's getting hard to keep it going... When I have my professional hat on, it feels so natural and I have such fun with it, despite all the problems I deal with with my families. Yet, when I come home and I am alone, I often wonder if I have walked my path in truth and made a difference. I have no children, and no partner except Spirit. I often find myself wondering why my Higher self would choose such a path for me, yet, I accept this path but, not sure anymore how to continue the walk/journey.

I welcome any feedback/ideas.

Spirit Bless,

Monica

Hi Monica,

There are two things I would suggest for you!

First it sounds as though you are lonely to be intimate with someone!

In other words you are always helping people deal with their feelings but have no one to help you deal with yours or even a sounding board!

I would suggest you make some time to connect with others outside of a professional relationship!

You refer to your spiritual life so to me it appears that this is very important to you!

Regardless of attracting a man, finding the right man will take you having to go to the right places he might be because obviously he will have to have some spiritual qualities and beliefs for you to make a go of it together!

So let your spirituality be the lead in this in finding places that you can share that part of yourself and where others might share it with you as well.

My second advice is simple!

Yes physical activity is great and it does help alleviate stress....but I'd suggest you tap further into your creator by creating! Take some sort of art/craft course or join a group who does some form of these that may have interested you!

There is nothing as healing and stress relieving but as well mind awakening and rejuvenating as tapping into the creator and letting that spirit guide yours! This is where you become one in spirit and it will open the potential to your life more than you even could imagine! As well you will have the satisfaction of having your time and energy produce something tangible and sometimes awing to self.

With this I too think that you may find someone on a spiritual plane with yourself and you certainly may never have expected it!

Please don't trap yourself with doubt! Things like "I'm not artistic" are rediculous and self-defeating! IF you are tapped into the spirit you know that nothing is impossible...

So Monica, take some advice...step outside the routine and comfort zone....go after what you want by going where they should be!

Remember too, it is not just the goal of arriving, but it is the journey there as well!

Blessings

Kit

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I CAN RELATE

It's Ok Monica

Sounds like a rut...

Turtleplus,

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B;essings