I am about to do just that. I am almost at the end of whatever strength I had
to stay this long. I can't do it anymore. I have been married 32 years and
my husband is an alcoholic. Not that I don't care for him, I do, but we do not
have a marriage in any kind of the sense in about 4-5 years. We don't fight
I do what I have always done for 32years and so does he. I worked in a
nursing home for 4 years as a teen and cleaned up messes. I had 4 children
and cleaned up more pee and poo. I took care of his mother for 15 years and
cleaned up more pee and poo. Now for 4years I have been cleaning up after
his accidents, which have become more frequent and messy. I am tired. I
don't want to live like this , My children which are grown are all tired of it too.
WE can't go to a family event without him getting out of control. The advise
you gave the other lady made me think. I prayed to God a long time ago.
when I was under the most stress of my life/ I was in my car late at night
in a storm and I screamed at the top of my lungs and asked God why I
felt so out of control. Pretty much he gave me that same answer. Nothing
is easy, your cards have been dealt play them the best you can because
you are in control of them. I've sort of forgotten that until now. Thank you
Keep me in your prayers. jenny
