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May 27, 2006, 12:29 pm PDT
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Quote From: logicatsunshine80, thank you so much for your responses. It helps to know that someone out there can understand what I'm going through. I just don't think I can be alone now, with the cancer being a constant threat in my life. Perhaps this is my punishment for making stupid mistakes in the past. A lifetime sentence. If I still had my son I might try to go it alone but that's not an option anymore.
I will try the name David Oliver and see what I can find. I must admit that when I'm generating enough money to pay the bills, I tend to stress so much less about everything. LOL, I think that's pretty normal.
Loading the "hut" on a trailer and hauling it away put such pleasant images in my mind... Thank you, LOL. I can understand. My ex bailed on me when I was really ill, barely functional. It was much easier to go party in the basement with my best friend and just leave me to die then to be a good husband. I did try so hard to get better in that toxic environment, really, I read Self Matters, Life Strategies and Relationship Rescue trying to make things work out. I decided to leave. I am so much better off for it. I am so much better off without him. I have a new outlook on life and I appreciate life so much more because I had to fight to keep mine. Now I demand a lot better treatment from people and I require people to have more things going for them in life than a couch a TV a dog and a beater car. If sending him away makes you feel good then maybe you should. It is not that you would alone, you would send a clear message that "Hey mister, I deserve a lot better than this crap that you have been handing out. As soon as he realizes that he could lose you, I bet that he would start behaving like a man, and not a rather large 10 year old (fort included!) . Here's a funnier idea grab him a bed and a microwave from a second hand store buy yourself a new fridge, and give him the old one for his b-day or whatever gift giving holiday comes next. Make it a surprise! I am just joking. I hope the David Oliver dealie helps.
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