Quote From: ritehere I find this to make alot of sense, but we can't really know can we? I guess that's why they call it "faith."
And you're also quite right, in my opinion anyway, that judgment is something we lay on each other.
I was your typical person -- I believed everything ever told to me .... and as a child I was given the challenge of religion - it was something I had to work out within me ... at 4.5 years old, my parents enrolled me in a catholic school and on Sundays I went to a Methodist sunday school. I was taught early on that there was just 1 god, 1 jesus -- and that man/women made up rules about them. There's not enough time or space for me to tell you of the challenges I experienced as a child. Both did real numbers on my head. In fact, it was at sunday school that I learned I was evil. Cause only bad things happen to bad people. So I was molested at 8 years old and told those words soon afterwards.
And the truth is, bad things happen to good people by people. I now know that people when they are hurting will lash out and hurt others. It's their child that still rules -- adults don't do that ... they have ways of dealing with life. I learned that from Self Matters. I don't hurt people anymore - well, I hope not anyway. However, I also know now that what I do and say and think can influence others because of where they are on their journey. That there's no way I can be held accountable because I'm just living my life. I know that I have internalized things said & done to me and later found out the person has no memory of it. It's just me internalizing what I THINK IT MEANT and the truth is it was just nothing.
Now, I have tapes that remind me that the person is having a bad hair day and they don't mean what they say or do. It helps me to not internalize.
Linda, do you find that truthful?
