Quote From: jazzz6HAVE ANY OF YOU EVER FELT AS THOUGH YOU DROVE YOURSELF TO YOUR END, WITHOUT KNOWING, NATURALLY, UNTIL YOU WERE FORCED TO FACE THE ISSUES? I LOOK BACK OVER MY YEAR AND IT SEEMS TO ME THAT SOMETHING, SOME PART OF MYSELF, PLAYED THE ROLL OF PUSHING ME PAST MY LIMITS. I AM ALSO WONDER IF IN THE DRIVE I SECRETLY WANTED TO GO ON OVER SO I WOULD HAVE A LEGIMATE REASON TO QUIT??? DO I EVEN NEED ANYONE'S PERMISSION TO SAY ENOUGH, STOP!!
I HAVE ALWAYS DRIVEN HARDER THAN MOST PEOPLE I KNOW. AT AGE 5 I WAS READ THE STORY ABOUT THE TRAIN (?) THAT SAID I KNOW I CAN, I KNOW I CAN. I'VE BEEN LIKE THAT, SOMEONE WOULD SAY YOU CAN'T AND I WOULD SAY WATCH. DANG, IT WAS SO GOOD AND SOOO BAD. MY MOM TOLD ME ONCE TO STOP PROVING THAT I DON'T NEED ANYONE.....
CALL ME JAZZ OR BECKY
PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF SOMEONE HAS A CLUE ABOUT THIS KIND OF MADNESS....
Becky,
I do know what you mean. I am like that as well. My problem is that i worry about every little thing and then try and fix it even if it is out of my control. While doing this I drive myself to the end and feel like I am losing my mind. I wont let anyone help me, I just want to do it on my own.
