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Quote From: tamsue35

if i was in the woods who would i have there with me? i said him. if i saw an animal in the woods what would it be? i said a deer. what would it be doing? i said looking at me... if i had a house in an opening in the woods what would it look like? i said it would be a big white one with a pourch around it and a fence . if i had a table what would be on the kitchen table? i said big roses. he that the fence around my house would probly mean that i felt like i was closed in or that i needed to be kept safe from others that might hurt me. i said well do you blaim me? he got these quetions from a guy at work today.. he is going to take my answers and see what the guy says about my answers tomorrow......tim picked my dad to be in the forest with him..... actually i would have too.....and ofcourse the deer was a no brainer for all of us.... or i could have said that dad was in the woods walking towards us........i wonder what that would have ment..... hummmm..it would have ment that he is always in my heart and on my mind and i feel him right hear beside me at all times. and that i have never gotten over him being gone. i just cant do it. and dont feel it. i talk about him everyday... just like he is right here beside me.... and all of my pets that i have ever had are right here too. i even told shelly and mandy to watch the house the other day and for toby and brandy to be good too....and i told mittens to make sure frisco didnt get into the fish tank again...... i was so lonely and i missed each and everyone of them that i just had to make sure they all had a job to do. and even timmy was sleeping on tiny in there aquarim like they always did. (my 2 turtles) and i even looked outside to see if i could see cassie and velvet and the donkeys and the other horses i ever knew..... so as you can see ive really lost it...... im really over the edge...... im even talking to the people in my life that are dead. cousins, aunts friends, grandpairents and uncles.... im freeking out really bad ive just lost it........i want to be with them all so very much.. i feel them so close to me and it like i can just reach out and touch them...just strech my fingers a lil bit more and i will be there...........i want to be with them, we all want to be with them. mom hate living with out daddy. grandma wants her PA back in her arms she misses him so very much.....we are all just exsisting here and taking up space. going through the motions.. we arent living................