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WHEN LIFE HAS A NEGATIVE HOLD ON YOU LIKE THIS, YOU HAVE TO STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT WENT WRONG.  STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST.  YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT. FORGIVE IT TO FREE YOURSELF. SEPERATE FROM THE PAST AND THE PAIN AND START NEW. SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER. IF YOU CHECK OUT, YOU'LL BE BORN RIGHT BACK INTO WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO ESCAPE. THE WORLD WILL ALWAYS CHALLENGE YOU.  THAT IS ITS PURPOSE. ALL OF US DEAL WITH SITUATIONS THAT TAKE US TO THE EDGE. YOU ARE IN THE MIDST OF DARK DAYS, BUT YOU CAN MOVE TOWARDS THE LIGHT IF YOU JUST STOP RESISTING THE SITUATION AND START LOOKING FOR A WAY TO RISE ABOVE THE MATTERS. ARE YOU GOING TO BE POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE TODAY? LIFE WILL DELIVER NOT WHAT YOU WANT, BUT WHAT YOU BELIEVE.   

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND DOING SOME MEDITATION AND READING SOME BUDDHIST BOOKS. 

Hi Heather, 

I have been here, and it's been helpful in the past,  I appreciate you response and concerns. I have some issues that I need to reveal, but I'm not sure if I can on here.   

But all of this boils down to my employer, my inability to purchase my medications, the withdrawals from the medications, which have been horrible, and the inability to function without them. I one by one I am running out.  I left 2 Rx's at the pharmacist when they told me that these two alone would cost me $750.00 without my insurance.  I had no choice. 

I have four more, I think that I will be running out of soon.  One of which is a siezure medication.  It helps with the depressive symptoms, but no one knows how close to death I may have recently came because of these sudden withdrawals........and no insurance to get treatment. 

This is what scares me.  I haven't the energy to fight, none the less, I haven't the resources to buy what I need to survive. 

There's just so much I cannot say on this site, and the fact that we have two vehicles down is even more devastating.  It's overwhelming.  And I cannot get anyone to understand where I am coming from.   

I plan to push ahead, and try to deal with the tragic events brought upon my life by the intentional malice brought on by my recent employer.  Nothing but utter and malicious intents, defamation of character, and deliberate infliction of human pain and suffering.   

This situation has snowballed into a crushing and devastating blow to my health, my life and my career options. 

More later. 

thanks again, 

dj