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August 30, 2005, 7:02 pm PDT
Giving meditation a try.
Quote From: ritehereIt can be difficult to step back from our lives, to see the wider view. I used to think that nobody around me hurt as badly as I did. Reading some of the posts on these boards can quickly give you a different perspective on that. Suffering is all around us, and the ones who seem to be happiest are the ones who have learned that suffering can be managed, and that our lives can have equal measures of peace and happiness.
Meditation can help us to find the peace, by opening us to the workings of our mind, and how we continue to let our past affect our present and future.
Thank you for the advice on finding time for meditation and changing the "tapes" in my head. I feel that there are too many "tapes" and not enough room or the completely wrong "tapes" to begin with. I don't think that i have any coping skills because i always feel overwhelmed with emotion or worry about anything and everything. I am looking into meditation to try and calm my mind and find inner peace so i can cope with everything around me. I not only find myself worrying about laundry, raising kids etc, but also worldly problems that i have no control over. I thought i had Adult ADD at first but then i saw the show about it and that's not it...maybe obsessive worrying which makes me nonfunctional sometimes. I'm a hoarder like the people i saw on the show today because i cannot throw things away (it runs in my family..example, i moved into my grandparents house after they passed away and am living with not only their stuff but my mom and aunt's old toys and great- grandparent's stuff..i am willing to go through it since no one else will but my mom doesn't want me to throw anything away...ugh) and i lack the motivation to start tidying up because it doesn't seem to look any better ( i think i just move the piles around and throw SOME things away) so i get overwhelmed once again and quit, leaving the house a wreck still for days till i get another urge to clean. This is a neverending cycle. I am so happy with my immediate family life, loving husband, two wonderful toddlers and one on the way, i know my spiritual path, yet i seem so unhappy about everything else and i don't know WHY! Maybe i need to stop being so unselfish and pay a little more attention to me before i lose myself. I will try and use my relief from the kids on nights and weekends by my wonderful husband for myself instead of housework... and work on meditation because i know it can help, i just need to do it. Thank you for listening and Blessed Be.
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