Quote From: nekocats2I am sorry.
I do know how you feel. I really do. I too was sexually assaulted my life. I too, have my cats. My cats are my life. They give me purpose.
When, I am sad, they crawl next to me and purr. I do understand how it feels. I will admit, I do not know exactly how you feel. I have two children. Their father was an abusive ass to me. He hurt me. He pushed me into sex with other men for his behalf.
But, Liz, when you speak of the pain, I can understand. I don't mean to sell you short. My God, never. I know you hurt. I feel that and I see that. I feel you can find a way out. Just as I try each day to find a way out. I know it is dark and empty. I know it is an empty hole. I know that. But, please, try. Just, try. I will do what I can to reach out and help you. You are worth living. You are worth being here. You are a good person. I will continue to tell you that.
Neko/Vickie
I guess I just have heard it all just once too many times. I am sure you are very sincear, but in reality if I stopped writing we would part and never talk again. I am not asking for a deep friendship, just making the point that people really don'e care. People ask " How are you doing?" But they don't really want to know. Just a simple yes or no is good. Beyond that, they don't want to be bothed. Nobody cares how I am, I don't have anyone who calls me to ask me how I am doing or asks me to come over. If I dropped of the face of this earth right now, no one would miss me. The really sad thing about it is that it is true. It has been this way all my life and I am tired fo pretending that things will change. Well at 44 yrs old just how long do I give it a chance ??? I have given it more than its fare share of a chance. Time to move on. Time to make a drastic move.Get out of here.
Liz
