Message Boards
Replies to 'Defining Your Authentic Self'
|
June 12, 2006, 7:37 pm PDT
 Quote From: athanasia I am a 23 year old woman born and living in Australia. As a child, my parents divorced and I was the "man of the house". My mother worked a lot and I helped with keeping the household running. It was a role I fell into and graciously accepted by all family members. My childhood wasn't desirable or what I wish my children to have, but I was educated and had a roof over my head at all times, despite the circumstances under it.
I live away from all of my family now, leaving the state where all my family are in order to find my authentic self. Since moving away almost 4 years ago I have realised only recently, my authentic self has been discovered. Ask anyone of my past and they will tell you I was hard, cold, aggressive and extravert. Instead ask people who know me today and they will tell you instead, that I am a sensitive, caring, open, passive introvert who dressed up in all the other attributes in order to keep that household running smoothly whilst ignoring a childhood that escaped me. I'd just like to say that if there is anyone out there worried they are not living the person they were born to be, take the time to look deep into who you are now, how you got there and whether it is who you believe yourself to be. It is so worth the time and emotional journey!
Had I not looked beyond my circumstances, I would still be the 15 year old mother of 3 siblings. I was a wavering girl running entirely on nervous energy and fixing everyone elses' problems to avoid acknowledging my own.
All I can say is now is the time to make up for lost time! I sought counselling, self development and family reconcilliation. I did not want to look back 30 years from now and wonder how my life took advantage of me. I'd like it to be the other way around. I decided to take advantage of my life; use my history to perfect my future and claim back everything I'd lost.
Everyone has a story, and everything comes full circle. Use what has happened to lift you higher, rather than pull you down. I just wanted to share that with people who may be struggling with life issues. It is amazing what can happen when you open yourself to the amazing possibilities!!! I signed on to this website fully believing in what your e-mail just said. I have a very similiar childhood as you. I grew up with my mother and two younger sisters. I was forced in to caring for them because my mother was always working. I don't believe I did a very good job, however, we are all very close now and they are both very loving and genuine. I too, moved away to find myself. I am struggling at that. I am not too intellegent and not very creative, my support system is basically non-exsistant. I'm alone. I'd still be alone if I were home. There are just times when I walk into my apartment and I wonder why I am doing this and not with the people that matter most. It gets very hard pushing myself to be succesful and to become somthing. I wouldn't give up my past because it's made me who I am. How do I become when it's just me pushing myself? |
|
Return to the Message Board
