At least you have family. I don't even have that. I have to live a lie with my family. I can't be myself. Therefor I don't even exsist. My bio mother didn't even want me. Got rid of me right off the bat. Last night I just cried and cried. Tonight I can't cry, I am too depressed to cry. It really gets you no where. on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being very happy I am at a 1. I just don't want to live. Why should I ? I mean nothing to no body. NO body has benifitted from me being alive. Not even me. I have given myself such pain for letting myself put up with this world for so long and fooling myself listening to others saying things will get better. They do not. Some people were made to be popular in this world, but I am a reject and that I will always be. There is no dispute about that. I know...I have lived this life for 44 yrs.
Liz
