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June 13, 2006, 6:36 am PDT
 Quote From: bratzz Thank you all for your support ,and warm words ,sometimes it's good know someone is there sometimes it's hard to get those thoughts out your head each day and think differently ,I;ve been told more times than once to snap outta it and god I pray it all stop in my thoughts just like that . but I always felt myself spiritual ,seeing good in everything in life and people ,kinda magical thinking ,I feel people sometimes miss the simplest things in life and get to busy just say hello and offer a smile in postive manner to those that you meet ,people helping people . it's like people thought I thought this way because I didn't see or face reality but to me way I saw life was magical maybe niave but good feeling it gave me despite what happened to me but now it seems I'm so slow and those I love are slipping away from my life and lonessness is only thing I see in front of me each day .given hope to be taken away and sometimes more than often thoughts keep coming back to way I think. I feel having to relocate and move from my home leave things behind and living ,hiding from my abuser I am the crimminal and not just victim ,my spirit is filled with such shame .I reach out and all I get is list numbers to call to have that dash hope taken away . its like people dont wish be part your life if your fighting those thoughts ,I don't blame them sometimes it just makes it harder yoou are all alone. Sometimes people give out numbers because they care so much they want you to have expert help. Just by giving the numbers they have already become a part of your life and been touched by your words as it takes time to get contact numbers for experts. Think about it while planning on a blessed day. I agree that sometimes the victim suffers more than the criminal. It is advised to move...how sad to move and then stalker find you. I moved 200 miles away and stalker stalked me there. Been there. Done that. I have the dental work dental plan of a rapist's fist who stalked me from the time I was 16 until 28. Escalated because when I called police about the vulgar names he was yelling up since I wouldn't date him the police said, "Don't call us out for name calling. We could be solving a murder." Yes, almost mine six years later when police said, "You need to get a big man to protect you because we think he planned to kill you and we cannot watch you 24 hours a day." One problem...no big man ever volunteered to help yet there were quite a few to further exploit. Thank God now there are stalking laws "and" numbers of experts who have experience to help. The year stalking stopped for me was the year stalking laws put on the books in that State, 1992, for some criminals know the law so well that they know just how far to push the envelope etc. Don't join the ranks of any abuser and abuse yourself too as when anyone considers suicide they are considering being their worst abuser. Enlist in Dr. Phil's army of SELF MATTERS includes YOU and begin cheering yourself on with positive affirmations DAILY. Call numbers for advice if you need advice and, if not, you might of just helped someone who does need since I wouldn't have posted unless I hadn't already become a part of your life taking time to look up and post here.
(The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN)) 1-800-656-4673 (HOPE). www.rainn.org It is FREE, it is confidential and it is answered 24/7. Domestic Violence: www.ndvh.org 1-800-799-7233 countries a-z: www.hotpeachpages.net/a/countries.html Note: On above click on Country, State and City Hello by: SEA H ello, I am glad that you stopped by E njoy the blessings and smiles I prayed for you L ook and see so you catch them all every day L ots of blessings if you will have faith and believe O pen your eyes for possibilities await to be seen |
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