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Quote From: lstnspce

When I saw the sad man and the lovely gal yesterday, they were like the friends I have only dreamed to meet.  They spoke my heart.  My house was so bad my friends came and helped my husband.  When my husband cleans the house I go to bed and cannot help him, as it creates such confusion to me.  I don't know where to start.  I have everything I have ever owned, except clothes.  Well, a few years back I did unload, but now have the same mess.  I hate it, but can't seem to change it, as I never really was aware of it.  I too save jars, boxes, burned out light bulbs, bags of peanuts from packing.  I keep old  clothes from loved ones, and I don't even have kids. I regret ever cleaning out when I do.  I also go through the trash to make sure nothing has been thrown out.  It was so wonderful (misery loves company) to hear those people and relate to their emotions.  I tell you I have really tried and cannot overcome this, except for brief periods when I am "trying to be good".  I am more like the sweet gal that was on there. (not sweet, but her story is my story)  I have been this way all of my life as I have everything from my childhood and can remember losing almost anything I have lost. I have many medical problems and thought perhaps I just didn't feel like cleaning it, it was so overwhelming.  Now I am wondering if something truly is wrong in my brain.  When Dr. Phil said that, it was the only thing that sounded like it made any sense to me at all in years about this situation.  How my husband can love me is beyond me.