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Kenneth is almost 85 years old and legally blind.   

Since his open heart surgery several years ago, he takes blood pressure medication amongst others.  He has a nurse that comes to apartment and takes his vitals.  Yesterday, he told me that his pulse was a little low last week.  When the nurse came to his aparrtment to check his vitals, 

his pulse was 48! 

Kenneth was rushed to the emergency room.  The cardiologist placed a heart monitoring vest on Kenneth.  The cardiologist wanted to hospitalize Kenneth.  The problem being shortage of  hospital beds.  The hospital staff says Kenneth's pulse must be 45 before they can place him in the critical care ward.  Kenneth's pulse is 48 as of  last night! 

The cardiologist says the first 72 hours are the most critical.  People are rotating visiting Kenneth. 

I am a so scared!  Kenneth is my dearest and only true friend in Corpus Christi! I  need to force myself to eat because I do not feel hungry.  I have been so upset that I have picked scabs and scratched myself.  I also cut some callouses off my big toes.  The callouses get so big.  I need to keep myself busy to channel my nervous energy. 

I was able to sleep because I am so emotionally exhausted that my body shut down for 5 hours. 

I need to go so I can get a few things done before Kenneth's wake up time. 

Beth