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August 31, 2005, 6:42 pm PDT
 Quote From: djmatt To everyone, I appreciate your concern and support.
I will talk to my doctor about the financial situation and see what he will do. I didn't know this until I read your earlier email.
I'm trying to hang in here. I have two more vehicles down, my son's car, which I went to Atlanta in my daughter's truck to tow it back to LaGrange, then the truck broke down on the way back.
The extra exhertions, working on these vehicles I believe is contributing to the pain. But I can tell the surgery did help. I have to be more careful. I'm just very tired, frustrated and broke. Sorry to complain. I couldn't get off the floor today until about 3:00 pm, after I broke down and used one of my pain patches. The doctor's Rx. Utram doesn't help this kind of pain.
Things will improve, hopefully. I have the references that you all have given me, and the staff here in case I feel like I can't make it. Thanks to everyone.
I sat down one night about a week or so ago and wrote a suicide note and cried. I didn't know what I was going to do, whether or not I would go thru with it. I threw it away today. I am really trying hard. I have had so many friends who have let me down, and a family member who were going to help me with a project to try to make a little extra money. They have all let me down and now I look like a fool after pouring about 1000.00 into this project, and no way to complete it.
I would not have made the agreements and invested the money had some of these people had not insisted they would help me, several of them. Here I sit, everyone has an excuse, and I am aout of a grand I didn't have to spend in the first place.
This is my life's story. Sorry all. Something has to change, and soon. I can't deal with all of this. I don't eat many times because I don't have the energy to cook, or to go to the grocery store. So I take pills and sleep. Or do without until I can't stand it anymore.
Again, I am sorry to complain, and I appreciate the support all of you have given me.
I am sooooo happy for you! Here is a GREAT IDEA and it will actually help you....Your thinking where is this girl coming from I just dumped my heart out and she says she is so happy? YES! Your letter is filled with such HOPE! SUCH JOY GOD has given you so many choices but you are blinded with pain and problems you just cant see...
Thats why he has brought you here and we are here to help each other....
Cars....Maybe the "TEST is GOD wants you to slow down...maybe that is why your cars aren't working...my daughter who just turned 18 and was on the gogogo got a BRAND new car for graduation from my MOM a promise from my DAD ( something I would NEVER I MEAN NEVER) would have received...I would have to walk to work when i worked 2 jobs after HS....no one seems to remember that one......But Hayley gets a new car and believe me I LOVE HER MORE THAN MY OWN LIFE this is not a jealous remark in any way shape or form please please know this....Well little miss.....gogogog picking everyone up/dropping everyone off/movies work/Ms popularity/blah blah/blah/go/go/go TOTALS NEW CAR 2 weeks after GRADUATION I said GREAT HAYLEY...GREAT my boyfriend got jetta out of the car I almost ran over him....Did you? No...Did he get hurt? No but I.....GOD WANTED YOU TO SLOW DOWN,,,,,
Next SUBJECT 1,000 dollars GREAT!!!! It could be 25 THOUSAND people have lost more in one night gambling in ATLANTIC CITY......You need a way to save FACE....Sometimes people are not nice.....GET Dr. Phil's book LIFE Strategies...Same thing happened to him and IT actually happened to me too...YOU ARE NOT alone....
You have to eat..To cook or they win,,,,,,,,Those devils those negative devils win.....DO YOU WANT THE DEVIL TO WIN? YOU BEING THE SON OF JESUS? GOD DOESN'T MAKE JUNK DOES HE? |
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August 31, 2005, 6:51 pm PDT
Quote From: djmatt To everyone, I appreciate your concern and support.
I will talk to my doctor about the financial situation and see what he will do. I didn't know this until I read your earlier email.
I'm trying to hang in here. I have two more vehicles down, my son's car, which I went to Atlanta in my daughter's truck to tow it back to LaGrange, then the truck broke down on the way back.
The extra exhertions, working on these vehicles I believe is contributing to the pain. But I can tell the surgery did help. I have to be more careful. I'm just very tired, frustrated and broke. Sorry to complain. I couldn't get off the floor today until about 3:00 pm, after I broke down and used one of my pain patches. The doctor's Rx. Utram doesn't help this kind of pain.
Things will improve, hopefully. I have the references that you all have given me, and the staff here in case I feel like I can't make it. Thanks to everyone.
I sat down one night about a week or so ago and wrote a suicide note and cried. I didn't know what I was going to do, whether or not I would go thru with it. I threw it away today. I am really trying hard. I have had so many friends who have let me down, and a family member who were going to help me with a project to try to make a little extra money. They have all let me down and now I look like a fool after pouring about 1000.00 into this project, and no way to complete it.
I would not have made the agreements and invested the money had some of these people had not insisted they would help me, several of them. Here I sit, everyone has an excuse, and I am aout of a grand I didn't have to spend in the first place.
This is my life's story. Sorry all. Something has to change, and soon. I can't deal with all of this. I don't eat many times because I don't have the energy to cook, or to go to the grocery store. So I take pills and sleep. Or do without until I can't stand it anymore.
Again, I am sorry to complain, and I appreciate the support all of you have given me.
Good to see you. THANK GOD you tore up that suicide letter. I don't think you are complaining. You are hurting and just need to find the right resources to give you some relief. POSITIVE resources as you say and I agree with you. I hope your doctor will write a letter for each of the creditors you ran up debt with recently. This is working for a person I know who ran up debt during depression for it is a symptom of the illness. Whether running up because of planning to check out so having one last run of fun or grandiose business venture etc. etc. etc. One-third of America is in signficant credit card debt and our government has a deficit in the trillions so VERY common. I hope BOTH your doctor drafts a letter that part of depression can result in spending sprees like was done for person I know...and...do mention to creditors that you have been told that debt can be written off for this reason in your letter of introduction with account number etc. I hope works too in the state you live in but I thought a federal law...not sure... Doctor suggested to the person I know. Seems to be working. Of course they might first say no and simply appeal. I think everything I have ever helped anyone with has taken an appeal. One thing two appeals. I guarantee if you begin eating you will feel better. Yes, don't undo your surgery over doing it on car repairs. Just like you like to help people people like to help you when you need help. You can ask churches if they participate in shared ministries or can help you with a ride if you need one or car repairs. Keep the faith IN YOU. Hugs and prayers, SEA United Way Helpline 1-800-233-HELP 4357 |
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August 31, 2005, 7:04 pm PDT
Quote From: djmatt To everyone, I appreciate your concern and support.
I will talk to my doctor about the financial situation and see what he will do. I didn't know this until I read your earlier email.
I'm trying to hang in here. I have two more vehicles down, my son's car, which I went to Atlanta in my daughter's truck to tow it back to LaGrange, then the truck broke down on the way back.
The extra exhertions, working on these vehicles I believe is contributing to the pain. But I can tell the surgery did help. I have to be more careful. I'm just very tired, frustrated and broke. Sorry to complain. I couldn't get off the floor today until about 3:00 pm, after I broke down and used one of my pain patches. The doctor's Rx. Utram doesn't help this kind of pain.
Things will improve, hopefully. I have the references that you all have given me, and the staff here in case I feel like I can't make it. Thanks to everyone.
I sat down one night about a week or so ago and wrote a suicide note and cried. I didn't know what I was going to do, whether or not I would go thru with it. I threw it away today. I am really trying hard. I have had so many friends who have let me down, and a family member who were going to help me with a project to try to make a little extra money. They have all let me down and now I look like a fool after pouring about 1000.00 into this project, and no way to complete it.
I would not have made the agreements and invested the money had some of these people had not insisted they would help me, several of them. Here I sit, everyone has an excuse, and I am aout of a grand I didn't have to spend in the first place.
This is my life's story. Sorry all. Something has to change, and soon. I can't deal with all of this. I don't eat many times because I don't have the energy to cook, or to go to the grocery store. So I take pills and sleep. Or do without until I can't stand it anymore.
Again, I am sorry to complain, and I appreciate the support all of you have given me.
Hi there read your post and how proud i am of you for throwing that letter away.I know things seem bleak but you threw that letter away for a reason.YOU WANT TO LIVE! and i know you will turn things around for yourself.If they weren't there your fiends they were much of friends sorry if i hurt your feelings.health we need money yes to but its not everything.How can you heal if you let money and financial difficulties take over your life.If you don't eat ,and all you do is sleep well your energy level is pretty much shot and its harder on your problem with depression or do you suffer from it? You have to look after no#1 YOUfirst and then try to pick up the pieces again.I know its easier said than done but what have you got to lose right?I wish you well many blessings.cathy |
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