Replies to 'Depression'

To everyone, I appreciate your concern and support.  

I'm trying to hang in here.  I have two more vehicles down, my son's car, which I went to Atlanta in my daughter's truck to tow it back to LaGrange, then the truck broke down on the way back. 

The extra exhertions, working on these vehicles I believe is contributing to the pain. But I can tell the surgery did help.  I have to be more careful.  I'm just very tired, frustrated and broke.  Sorry to complain.  I couldn't get off the floor today until about 3:00 pm, after I broke down and used one of my pain patches.  The doctor's Rx. Utram doesn't help this kind of pain.   

Things will improve, hopefully. I have the references that you all have given me, and the staff here in case I feel like I can't make it.  Thanks to everyone.  

I sat down one night about a week or so ago and wrote a suicide note and cried.  I didn't know what I was going to do, whether or not I would go thru with it.  I threw it away today.  I am really trying hard. I have had so many friends who have let me down, and a family member who were going to help me with a project to try to make a little extra money.  They have all let me down and now I look like a fool after pouring about 1000.00 into this project, and no way to complete it. 

I would not have made the agreements and invested the money had some of these people had not insisted they would help me, several of them.  Here I sit, everyone has an excuse, and I am aout of a grand I didn't have to spend in the first place. 

This is my life's story.  Sorry all.  Something has to change, and soon.  I can't deal with all of this.  I don't eat many times because I don't have the energy to cook, or to go to the grocery store.  So I take pills and sleep.  Or do without until I can't stand it anymore. 

Again, I am sorry to complain, and I appreciate the support all of you have given me.