Quote From: nekocats2I want to let you all know how much I appreciate the support you have given me. I am still struggling so much I can't put it into words. I am sick and tired of crying and being depressed. Honestly, I am giving much thought to going back on anti-depressants. I went off of them a couple months ago due to it causing my blood pressure to rise and I am just sooooo tired of being on meds. I hate the way I feel with this constant depression. I hate living!!!! I had this type of horrible depression many years ago which resulted in me attempting suicide. I won't go down that dark hole again. I could not do that to my husband or my family. No matter how much I hate myself and my life,I don't have the right to cause them pain. So, I will continue to plug along and deal with the pain. I guess when God says it is time to leave this earth, then it will be time. I just want the pain to stop!
Hey...time to shut up! Again, thank you to all of you for the support you give. I never even came close to getting this growing up.
oh my God i hate this computer. I just want to take the damn thing and throw it through the window.
You and I sound like we have alot in common. I feel your pain i really do. Those thoughts that you have...well I have them too. Wish they would get out of my head. I wish i could be normal. I am sorry that you feel this way, but just know that I am here with you and for you as much as i can be.
