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July 25, 2005, 7:14 pm PDT
sweets...you're not the only one, believe me
Quote From: sweets537these are the things that i wish i could fix. our cable went out about 2 hours ago and i thought..."i know that I paid that bill" so i went back and looked and yes i did pay it, even though I am forgetful and i couldnt even remember what month this was. so i called the cable company and the lady was like "well i dont know why your cable is out" i wanted to reach through the phone and strangle her and i said "well maam that is why you work there, now can you find out why my cable is out"so ten minutes after being on hold she comes back and tells me there is a line down somewhere.
Its nothing major to a normal person, but to me I get stressed over the smallest things. My husband just stared at me like i was losing my mind. I dont think he will ever understand. It's the little things that we expect to not be a problem...I mean, after all, you pay your bill, you expect service...and when service is interrrupted, you at least deserve an explanation.
Losing cable is double trouble for me...we also have a cable modem...No TV and no computer!!!
Hang in there and try not to jump to conclusions that your hubby thinks you're crazy. If you keep thinking that way, you will drive yourself crazy eventually. If he looks at you funny, why don't you ask him, "What are YOU looking at? Haven't you ever seen an old fashioned bitch fit before?"
I'm not trying to make light of your situation, but you take things so seriously and you are so hard on yourself. I hope you understand where I'm coming from...I really think you two need to do some more talking. He deserves to know how you feel and you deserve to feel safe enough to tell him. When we first got married I expected my husband to read my mind and although he is a very smart man and a psychiatrist to boot, he can't read minds...not even mine (even though he thinks he can sometimes!) I had to learn to let him know what I needed and to not assume that he would know what to do for me. Give it a shot with your husband. Let him know you are grieving, let him know that you are scared and let him know that you would like his support while you try to work things out. It can't hurt to try.
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