Quote From: marcia52I too was raised with money issues. But ours was hearing MONEY FEARS. About 10 years ago, I took a tape recorder when I visited my father's 2 sisters and then to my mom's family reunion. I asked them questions and learned so much about my family past. It was the best thing I ever did for myself! I highly recommend it for people! Especially if they have elders. But now, with camcorders, you could actually do it a whole lot smarter.
I learned that my mom lost her home and went from middle class to living in a 3-room shack. In the winter, they lived in 1 room. They were eventually farmed out to different families. Their dad deserted them and wouldn't pay a penny for their support. My dad was basically the same.
By learning where they were coming from - I learned where I was coming from. That my parents had pasted down their fears/shame to their kids.
Right now, I'm just happy to finally hear myself say, I need to cut back again! I need to only spend $$ this month. How can I ..... It's pretty cool cause it's not causing to great of a fear. But I'm still at the BEING COMFORTABLE with it before I do something. I figure GOD will give me the time because it's what I'm having to learn right now in my life. Sounds funny doesn't it? but it's true... I discovered awhile back that if I just followed the lessons as they arrive and do something, no matter how small or big, I was always moving forward.
You are right, God will give you what you need when you need it - trust me - He has done that for me sooo many times, and no it isn't funny - it's Gods Plan. God has given me wisdom when I needed it and will do the same for you, and you are doing the right thing by keeping yourself Open to His Voice - Just keep doing this and you'll never be wrong.
What happened to your family - can and did leave a very lasting fear on you - very declarative - but with the help of God, you will overcome.
Rog