Quote From: luvmytallyDear fellow birth mom-
PLEASE PLEASE do yourself a favor and don’t beat yourself up! Your son is going to think of you as his own savior…hero…etc. I am very sad to hear that feeling like he’ll hate you in the future and that this thought is ruining your life. If ANYTHING you want to prove to him that because you placed him for adoption your life has had a significant change!! When I placed my birth daughter about 6 months down the road I got drunk one night….I went through a serious life altering moment (if getting pregnant wasn’t enough!) and I thought about the future. What would she think about me if she met me down the road say 15 years from now and saw me as a drunk…no schooling…no job...etc. She would think that nothing changed. I want her to be proud of me…hence the reason I hold my head up high. You have a lot of things going for you! You are awesome! Why would your son hate you? Be glad you know these people who are raising him. Have faith that they will raise him to look at the adoption process as being a life savor! Things will works out don’t get discouraged! You have done a wonderful thing, really. Please, life your day to day life as if to prove that you have improved yourself for the better. He was your life saver and you were his!
Which much love and concern,
Deborah
Thank you for the support! When I talk to my mommy about how I feel, she tells me the same thing. I OWE it to my son to "grow up" and doing something with my life. I am SO
PROUD of you for making the right choice with adoption and I am also very proud that you did something with your life for your daughter. My son really was the only thing that could have changed my life forever at that time and I am happy that GOD put him in my life so that I would get back on the right track. I am also happy that GOD used me to give this AMAZING family another child. Again, thanx for your support.
