Quote From: cancerHi it's been a while since I"ve posted, I've been out of town and un able to reach the web site. I am doing a little better but it's been a struggle , I am eating two meals a day now and I find it hard not to throw up after the second meal. that was happening when I first started eating the second meal . in secret I was diong that I don't want my son in law to know because he makes me feel angry an manipulated almost as if I have no control over myself, almost as if I have no right to say that I am not hungry. I've been on a long trip with my daughter and her spouce , and he makes me feel like if I don't eat at least twice a day that they will take my grandchildren from me. I try very hard not to throw up the second meal but It's very hard to keep it down. I am doing my very best and I am taking it one day at a time. I have been thinking about the last time I posted and the answer I got was about the bodie matabolizing the food and I am trying to rember this but I can't help thinking that I am getting fat. so I throw up the second meal . I think that I've ben doing good cause there have been those few times that I haven't thrown up but then I feel sick for the rest of the day. I keep telling myself that it will get better and to go one day at a time. and maybe I can convince myself of that. God Bless to every one CANCER
They also put me on this program where I`ve got to keep an accurate acount of everything I eat on a daily basis. It actually freaks me out worse than before! Now I am torn between lying, and facing the fact that I`m probably still not eating enough. Lying would be so easy.............. The other down side of having to write it all down is that when I look at the sheet at the end of the day, I find myself thingking of ways to cut down. lol . Life & all it`s mysteries!
My thoughts are with you.
