Replies to 'Self Image'

i don't know how either......... i never had someone to raise me i was busy taking care of my mom........  but am i going to just sit back and accept that i don't know how or am i going to start believing in myself more even though i felt i had no reason........  but you know what i realized yesterday i ddin't now become what i should have become for the life i lived for the things that happened to me...........  i should not have...........  i can relate to you in the life you live and the things you face but for me to just stand back and not learn to fight for myself well yeah...........  fighting for oneselve isn't something that can be taught but something we develope as we move along in life............  i was a mother to my mother.........  i had to do the "impossible" if i could do the "impossible" then...........  well why can't i try to do an healthy "impossible" ............. 

you know i am so used to taking care of my mom that even though i am not living with her right now i am so used to having to listen out for her and watch out for her that when i heard one small noise yesterday i almost jumped up and ran..... i'm not een with my mom right now...........  if you dwell on being the mother to your mom it will weaken you but if you attempt to fight even though you "don't know how" then you will be able to fight and you will find strength..... one of my greatest determinations that kept me strong even though a lot of things i was doing were things that showed weakness was that i would not be my mother......... 

i don't know how to do it either but i am trying..................  you know .............  we didn't know how to crawl when we were babies and no one could teach it we had to learn it for ourselves we had to conquer that...........  so as far as these things we never learned in life because no one taught us about these things or about life and all we have seen are negative things that steal life from us.......  well it kind of left that little one inside us and we need to let her have the determination we did as a baby........ you know no one could teach us to walk we had to learn on our own we had to develop that ...........  that's just like life.........  you and i had no one to teach us to walk the walk of life..... no one really does but you know what we have to let that determined child in us that right now hurts so bad and feels so abanded and alone and remind her she of the determination she had to do the things no one could teach her and lets get up and walk!!!  it takes determination and striving.....  that baby had to have all that to learn to walk............  and that determination is only gone if you don't grab onto it.........  are you going to choose to stay in the i don't know how or are you going to stand up!!!

your a winner.........  inside everyone is a winner.......  but they make the choice whether that winner is defeated or conquers!!