Replies to '09/05 Phobias'

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It's hard for me to even type the words "throwing up". I am 54 years old and have lived with this fear since 4th grade when I saw someone at school get very sick. I happened to be in a class where I was terrified of the teacher plus emotional abuse at home from a father that was a Police officer that was a professional cross examiner. Any way I haven't thrown up since the 4th grade. In my twenties I had two children and had God's grace through the morning sickness feelings. My desire for children was very strong. I have feared planes rides, crowds, germs, car rides in the mountains, bus rides, hospitals anything or anywhere someone or myself might get sick. It was so wonderful to see the Dr Phil show today. I couldn't believe (shocked) seeing someone else with my phobia!!!!! I have felt so alone through the years. I have gotten better. My husband has a disease where he has had many intestines removed so I have been in hospitals a lot with him. I have had to rely on the Lord. I have tried to get help through therapy buy I was so scared that they would somehow make me get sick to overcome it that I would panic and not able to go very long. Anyway anyone with this fear...I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH!!! At my age I have a lot of stories but I have tried to face my fears through the years and as I have said have gotten a little better. My art has been a God send...because He understands me, that I needed something to calm me down.